monologue.

Spring break: I probably gained like 20 pounds in a matter of 4 days... and I'm pretty sure I'm not exaggerating. Other than the constant eating and getting burnt at the beach, I got a massage and went parasailing for the very first time! It was pretty sweet. I really love my family. 

School: Just the first day back from Spring break, and I already have a buttload of homework to do and a four chapter "learning experience" to study for. Fantastic! Well, at least there's only a little over 2 months of school left. I guess that's manageable. 

Life: Something exciting needs to happen. There are not enough hours in a day. And it doesn't help that I get home at 6 every day since I live in the middle of nowhere (shutup Nick). Mr. Burishkin has cancer, people are dying in plane crashes, and I have a huge test on Friday. The world is ending!

You: =/ Why do you keep doing this? I believe it's like, what.. the third time now? Oh well, I guess I'm over it.. kindof. I'm pretty sure you are already. 

Eh, I just wish you knew.

You #2: You frustrate me. Can you please just try for once? I wish you were more dedicated. It's not all about you. There are a bunch of other people counting on you, and you're letting everyone down.

You #3: I was cleaning out my backpack, and I found a note from you to your boyfriend. I totally forgot about that thing! I don't think I was supposed to read it. It's a little funny, but sort of disturbing in a way.

home sweet home!

..not really. cabo was sweet.

more about that later. school tomorrow!

oh joy.

oh fudge

=/ boo, that's lame.

Have you ever asked a girl for advice?
nahhh, of course not.

Name something you dislike about the day you're having?
i baked cookies, but i didn't realize we have no more milk.

What are you thinking of right now?
leeeaving tomorrow!

What do you want to be when you grow up?
i don't know yet.

Have you ever slept in the same bed as the same sex?
yes ma'am.

Do you miss anyone?
my siblings. but i get to see the tomorrow =)

Do you feel comfortable with answering personal questions?
lol, sure. as long as they're not TOO awkward.

How do you know the last person that commented you?
i found her at the animal shelter.

Did your night suck last night?
nope, it wasn't that bad.

How many months until your birthday?
about a month and a half-ish.

Have you been out side longer than 30 mins today?
yep. parents made me wash the car. fun!

Are you looking for a boyfriend/girlfriend?
nope! the single life is the life for meeee.

Can you make yourself sneeze?
hm, good question.

What is your current mood?
bored, lethargic, hungry, & excited.

Where were you at 9am this morning?
sleeping.

Whose bedroom were you in last besides yours?
mi madre y padre.

Why do you feel the way you feel?
because there's nothing to do, because i always am, because cookies aren't good without milk, & because i'm ready to get black at cabo tomorrow.

Who was the last person you yelled at?
hm, i do not know.

What are you listening to right now?
the good life - tim myers.

How has the week been?
muy buen.

Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?
yep!

Do you sleep with the TV on?
nope.

Are you too forgiving?
i think sooo..

What are you stressed out about?
psh, who gets stressed during spring break? come on now.

How many windows are open on your computer?
tres.

In the past week have you gotten sick?
nope.

What are you doing?
this and eating strawberries.

Who was your last call from?
my dad. he's too lazy to walk up the stairs to talk to me, hah.

When was the last time you drove far?
driving aaall the way to colton to nick's house.

How many clothes do you have in your closet?
i know it's hard to believe, but i have better things to waste my time on rather than counting all my clothes.

Have you ever liked someone so much that it hurts?
nope.

Are you happier single or in a relationship?
for now, i'm happier being single.

Have you ever broken some one's heart?
i hope not.

Have you dated people who weren't good to you?
nah..

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
maybe not everyone.

So, what if you married the last person you kissed?
my mom is happily married already, thanks.

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend?
nah, never anything serious.

When will your next kiss be?
mañana probablemente.

Do you have a best friend to lean on?
most definitely.

Would you prefer a baby boy or girl?
ooh that's a toughy..

Who was the last person to smoke a cigarette in your presence?
probably some random person.

What did you do today?
ate.

Today:

Woke up at 11. Thank God for Spring break!
Watched The Pianist with my parents. It's a really good movie. Kinda sad though.. but still good. Had to talk to an Indian dude from the Apple technical support place cause my dad couldn't understand a word he said. Neither could I. He had a pretty sweet accent, though. Practiced my cartwheeling skills. I think I'm actually improving! ...Not. Went to hula for the first time! I felt a little awkward doing some of the stuff, but it's alright. It was still a lot of fun =) At least I'm not stuck at home getting fat. Yay! Ergh, I need to start packing =/ Only 2 more days!

So this is what I spent half of my day doing. Great video, but doesn't help.
I still don't know how to do a cartwheel.

My new puppy! Just kidding.. My neighbor's dog just had puppies,

and he let me take one of them home to play with last night. It's so cute! 

I really want one, except they get really really big. 

Ah, why can't they just stay puppies forever?

"Relax, relax. Exhale and breathe, just breathe for me.

You are the earth beneath my feet, You are my gravity. 

Cause lately I've been tired and uninspired. 

Cause lately I've been tired, oh-so tired."

ONE MORE DAY

School: Today seemed like the longest day ever. My brain can't function correctly during school anymore. Maybe it's the weather. Two tests down, two more to go. I haven't gotten any better on the studying earlier than the night before thing.

Life: I need some excitement. I really hate this weather. Pessimistic people make me sad. I just realized that freshman year was a lot funner than this year. Did you know "funner" isn't a real word? I miss Casey. I miss Cassidy. My head hurts.

You: You need to smile more often! It's funny how much a smile can do. Don't focus on the tiny little things that may ruin your day, because you have A LOT to be thankful for. And plus, it brightens my day to see you happy =)

You #2: I'm glad things ended up like this. I'm pretty sure you're enjoying yourself a lot more now. Good for you! I don't think I would take back what I said, though. I'd say more, but..

You #3: I miss you. Or at least the old you =/ Hm.

You #4: I don't know what I'd do without you! I never really say this a lot to you, but thanks for always being there for me. For reals. I love you! Mmmkay, I'll stop now before this gets too sappy.

Eh, I need to stop wasting time. I'm going to go study.

Note to self:

Stop procrastinating. Get more sleep. Stop being a fatty and get up and go exercise. Start studying for tests earlier than the night before. Keep my room clean. 

I have an essay to write for English, math homework, and a picture of the musculoskeletal system that I have to draw for health.. all due tomorrow. Last night, I told myself I would sleep at 10. I slept at 11. I haven't done any type of running since P.E.. or since basketball ended. I have a religion test and a history test tomorrow which I haven't started studying for yet. My room was clean on Monday. Now, it looks like a tornado went through it.

I fail.

hm

xanga is overrated.