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Today was absolutely horrible.

Failed my chem test. & I'm probably not even exaggerating.. I did so bad. Didn't finish my chem homework, & I forgot to turn it in. Tried having praise team practice during lunch.. that failed. Didn't have time to eat anything & I forgot my daily apple at home. Praise team practice after school made me want to shoot myself in the face. Thank goodness it's the weekend soon.. This week was so long. I can't wait until monday is done. Dear God, PLEEEASE let everything turn out good.

Stressessesesesesese

On my mind:

• Planning week of prayer sucks. I hope everything works out..
• There's a chem test tomorrow & I have no idea what I'm doing.
• Someone explain Hess's Law to me. And q=ms(delta)t.. whaaat?
• I'm in the mood for climbing.
• Week of prayer is seriously stressing me out..
• Dear God, PLEASE let everything go smoothly.
• I'm satisfied with drill.. at the moment. 
• But I wish people would just commit to what they need to do.
• Dear God, PLEASE don't let it be like last year again.
• I wish I could go back in time & re-do everything..
• I wish I could blot you out of my memory.
• Ha ha ha.. just thought of something that made me lol. Literally. 
• I wish I could go back to bible camp.
• I don't appreciate the bipolar weather we're having.
• WHEN am I going to go snowboarding!?
• Oh hey, my sister is coming tomorrow! Yay :)
• Baby Jonah is coming in April ♥
• Today was actually a very good day.
• I should really start my chem homework now..

And because this annoys people:

• Reading that made me smile (:
• Thank you both for doing this. Seriously.. it means a lot.
• Sorry, my mind is bipolar. Can't help it.
• I can't believe you. I really need to talk to you about this.
• You made me realize a lot on the bus ride home.
• Hm, you surprised me a lot with that.. bravo.
• Sup troll.
• I hope that doesn't change your opinion..

Revivalution

"God takes the first 99 steps. 

All you have to do is take one."

Bible camp was the most amazing experience ever. This weekend was the best ♥ Met so many sweet people & learned so much.. it was seriously just what I needed. & the no phone service actually turned out to be a good thing. It was nice to just be able to focus on the whole experience without being distracted by my phone/school work/T.V./or the internet. My family group played a big role in the whole amazing-ness of the weekend too. Love all of them & I'm so blessed to have met them :) I already miss everyone + the whole atmosphere.. and the SNOW. Soo gorgeous. DEFINITELY going back next year. Now back to reality. Oh goodness.

There's only 4 and a half months of junior year left.. Didn't know that. High school is going by really fast. Makes me happy & sad at the same time.

"Love is like playing the piano. First you must learn to play by the rules, then you must forget the rules and play from your heart."

1. It's funny how most of these are usually about the same person.

2. I know I shouldn't, but I kind of miss talking to you.

3. I saw you today! But I was too scared to go up to you & say hi. Haha.

4. Hm, point proven. I think I do.

"The ultimate cock-block" HA

My-my showed us this video last night.. It's so sad. He's really cute though.

4 out of 5.

I got to wake up at 8:45 today. Nick & I went to Panera for breakfast, where I consumed a yummy, carb-filled cinnamon crunch bagel. It was great. I also had an amazing apple for lunch. It was the epitome of  a perfect apple. Perfectly crisp, juicy, & delicious. The geometry test was a joke. And I loved the weather today. Thursdays are good days. Today was a good day. I think I like the finals schedule. Yesterday & today have been so chill. Tomorrow is friday, & fridays are always good. CPK with the freshman canticles crew after 8th period :) & then a 4 day weekend to look forward to. Snowboarding on sunday.. I'm giddy with excitement. 

La la la..

1. Why? Because you used to be the one I turned to when I needed help. And even though it's not the same anymore, talking to you is always something I can look forward to & smile about afterwards.

2. You're the nicest person I know. It's the little things you do, but it makes such big differences. And thank you so much for agreeing to do this. You're a lifesaver =)

3. This song reminds me of you. And it's not the lyrics.. just something about it. It's been playing on repeat for the past half hour.

4. My feelings towards you have started to blur together recently. I can't tell which is which anymore. 

5. I read an old conversation, & it made me sad to see how much things have changed between us & how far we've drifted. I can't talk to you like how I did just a year ago.

Aw,

"When I was a little girl I used to read fairy tales. In fairy tales, you meet Prince Charming and he's everything you wanted. In fairy tales, the bad guy is really easy to spot. The bad guy is always wearing a black cape so you always know who he is. Then you grow up and you realize that Prince Charming isn't as easy to find as you thought. You realize the bad guy isn't wearing a black cape and he's not easy to spot; he's really funny, he makes you laugh, and he has perfect hair."

- Taylor Swift

I get to sleep in until 9 tomorrow. I can't even put in to words how excited I am for this. Today was a lovely day. The only thing that required brainwork was the chem final. The rest of the day consisted of sitting in my car, sitting in canticles, eating, & sitting on the couch in the drawing room. Hung out with Heather after school.. seems like I haven't done that in a while. "If you had to shoot one person, who would it be?" Ha ha ha.. great minds think alike. I should be studying for my history & geometry finals tomorrow, but instead I've been drawing/doodling for the past 2 hours. Time well spent, I think.

Weekend..

was just as good as I expected. Climbing on Friday, church & then Macaroni Grill on Saturday. Me & Krista owned at pictionary. We have some kind of weird telepathy going on or something. Jaimie's party later that night.. Lots of fun (: Pleasant surprises. I love you Hannah & Heather! Made that night so much better. Woke up at 12:35 today.. I love sleep. Went to T.H. with Jon for a bit, then to Wal-Mart to buy a new folder + binder.. finally. My papers fell out on a daily basis, & my binder finally broke apart on Friday. Anyways.. came home & cooked myself some cereal for dinner.. I can't cook to save my life. I should be studying for finals.. oh well.

1. Don't worry about it, he's a douche anyways. I ♥ you & keep your head up (:

2. Thankyouthankyouthankyou! You're a great friend. Sorry for all the trouble.

3. Hah.. made my night.

4. New years resolution: get as good as you (: Just needa practice.

Woo, sabbath.

How fascinating.. 

This week was lame. Thank goodness for the weekend and sabbath and tomorrow and sunday. I really want to go to Portugal.. But everything seems to be happening right around that time. Bible camp, pro musica tour, campout, jr./sr. banquet, & then the Philippines this summer. I need moneeeey. I had to switch my whole schedule just so I could keep working -___- Lame. Come to market night. Me & Jon are going to sing to help raise money. 

"Knowledge puffs up, but love builds up." Deep words man.

Cette semaine était boiteux

1. J'ai changé d'avis. Vous êtes comme le reste d'entre eux.

2. J'ai effectivement fait de vous un. Mais je n'ai pas envie de le donner à toi.

3. J'ai effectivement fait de vous un. Inutile.

4. Tu es gai. Dépêchez-vous D'avoir une voiture.

5. Vous pouvez être d'une telle déception parfois.

6. Salut, tu es géniale. Nous devons aller à l'aventure.

Lamesauce.

There's something about Tuesdays that really suck. First period, chapel, no pro musica, officers meetings, & then chem optionals = no bueno. Today is no bueno. I was looking in my folder for my assignment sheet, & then I found my geometry homework which I forgot to turn in. & then when I put my geometry book on my desk, I accidentally knocked over a box full of beads which took me like ten minutes to pick up.. geometry hates me :( And we ran out of water bottles, & I ran out of shampoo, conditioner, & face wash. And the magnet on the bracelet Heather gave me fell off when I tried to put it on. Bummerrrr..

But on the bright side, I might be going to Mammoth over the long weekend with my cousins.. I'm excited :) I've never been there before. Hopefully everything works out.

I miss this.. Winterfest @ Colorado, Freshman year..

Ski lifts were right outside of our balcony. We'd throw snow at the people below us.

Roooomies! Minus Brittany.. We'd walk to Starbucks almost everyday.

Aw, freshmen Heather & Michelle. Haven't changed much..

TF

Currently: weak, frustrated, & tiiiiiired.

Why can't I do it? It's mocking me. It's telling me to get in shape

 & do some pull-ups. I better do it on friday.. it's taking too long.

I'm getting a bunch of emails/letters about college stuff.. & I got this email with a bunch of sample essay questions for college applications. 

"Describe the most challenging obstacle you have had to overcome; discuss it's impact, and tell what you have learned from the experience."

For some reason, when I read this, my first thought was of drill last year. Hah.

1. I kindof want you to ask me.. We'll seeee.

2. I need more people like you in my life. You've very encouraging. It's nice.

3. I did, but I don't see the point anymore. You seem very different from last year, and I don't think you would anymore.

4. I admire you. You work hard for what you want.

Año nuevo

First blog of 2010! A new year, thank goodness. I'm ready to start off fresh. Was 2009 a good year? From a scale of 1 to 10, I'd give it a.. 7 or 7.5. Something like that. I grew farther apart with a few people, but at the same time I got closer with more people. And I'm definitely glad, cause I can't imagine what it'd be like without them. I wish I could say I don't regret anything about 2009.. but one thing definitely pops up into my head. But it's oooohkay, 'cause I'm gonna stick to my plan. This year will be better :)