Overwhelmed?

I really hate April & the beginning of May. It's that time where everything starts piling up & all the stress comes at you all at once. & tour definitely screwed me over with all the stuff I have to make-up.. Everything is a bit overwhelming at the moment. All this stuff to worry about.. making up my chem test to get my chem grade back up.. It dropped 22% because of the test, midterm, & homework I missed. 22%!? I got my grade report today & almost cried. Drill, preparing vespers/church for campout, catching up on all my assignments, getting grades up before the end of the year, SAT's.. I got home today & instead of doing make-up work.. I watched Glee. Up until now. HAH, bravo Michelle. 

I miss tour. I miss the whole environment.. I liked the feeling of waking up & not having to worry about anything. I totally forgot about school and drill and grades while I was there. Since I have nothing better to do, I guess I'll update about it.

Wednesday: Arrived at the hotel, watched crime shows & napped for 2 hours for a lack of anything better to do, ate at Cici's -- probably gained like 10 pounds from that one meal, did some "yoga" to try & work off the pizza weight, checked out the hot-tub for a bit, worship.. lalala, forgot what happened after that.

Thursday: Sang at Southwestern, did alright-ish. They had some AMAZING cornbread - I ate like 4 pieces. Toured the campus & found out that my tour guide was one of my counselors from camp, freaking bipolar weather over there, chilled at the hotel, went to Cici's.. lost my voice.

Friday: Sang at some Academy. Did alright-ish, but then got owned by their choir afterwards. They were REALLY good. & this one chick looked like she could've been in her own Disney channel show, got back to the hotel & then went to watch Date Night.. we had the whole theater to ourselves.. it was pretty sweet :)  Ate at Cracker Barrel. FREAKING BOMB BISCUITS. Felt like heaven in my mouth. Took pictures on a bridge, got back to the hotel, drove to our next concert but ended up not singing 'cause they forgot we were coming, got mexican food instead. BEST idea ever. Sang outside afterwards & totally butchered it. Drove around Dallas -- it's so pretty @ night. Went back to the hotel. 

Saturday: Our performance for church on Saturday was amazing :)) Or at least I thought it was. Compared to how we've sang in the past, it was really really good. Put everyone in a good mood for the rest of the day. Ate some yummy Mediterranean-ish food for lunch & met the cutest little kids :) Got on the bus & went "sight-seeing" around Dallas which consisted of looking at metal bulls & then going back to the hotel. Left for our last performance a little later.. we sounded even better than we did that morning. Freaking EMOTIONAL afterwards. Mr. Knippy was crying 'cause it was his last concert he'd conduct during tour so we all gave him a huge group-hug.. Cried happy tears. Saturday was definitely my favorite day out of tour. Even though we sucked in the beginning, we got 3 people to start attending church & to get baptized from our performances on Saturday. It was all worth it. Got back to the hotel, ate at Waffle House.. 

Sunday: SIX FLAGS. Lost my voice even more from all the screaming I did. I actually rode some LEGIT roller coasters & not the kiddy ones. I'm proud of myself. Katie's right.. if you don't have a good group to stay with, it sucks. Good thing we had a good group though :) & I had Katie to stay with when everyone went on Superman & Titan. Such a fun day. Spent time & bonded with people I never really talked to before. I was so exhausted when we got back. Our whole room fell asleep until worship. Mr. Knippy surprised us all with red velvet cupcakes form Sprinkles ♥ Wrote notes to each other.. it was so touching what people said :) Sat in the lobby with everyone & conversed with drunk people. Funniest thing ever. Late night movies with everyone in room 239, packed, & then went to bed. 

Monday: Woke up LITERALLY 5 minutes before we had to leave. Shasta & I are amazing. Got ready & were out the door right on time. Traveled home.. 

*For everything else I missed.. just look at Shasta's twitter -- www.twitter.com/shastily. She updated about every second we were there about what we were doing. Haha.

Probably the best week of junior year. Even though we were stuck in a boring hotel in the middle of nowhere, I honestly didn't care by the end of the trip. Once everyone got past the fact that we couldn't really do anything or go anywhere, that's when it became fun. We found our own ways to have fun.. I bonded with people I never thought I would & got closer to people I was already close with. My roommates were amazing (= Katie, Shasta, & Melon. Hm, lots of memories made in that room ;) Late night television.. sketchy stuff. *Sigh, I miss it =/

Gahd that was long.

1. GIVE ME MY SPACE. Seriously. This always happens to me, & this is how I deal with it. Sorry.

2. You have no idea how much I'm going to miss the both of you next year :( Pro musica definitely won't be the same. Ily guys ♥

3. There will always be something about you that just sets you apart from the rest of them.. but I still can't figure out what it is.

4. Being at six flags reminded me of you.. Oh goodness, I miss

(to be continued)

Tour was amazing. I wish I could replay those 5 days over again. Today was rather depressing. I would gladly take being stranded in the middle of nowhere in ghetto De Soto Texas over being in school. Can't believe I'm saying this, but I miss the Fun Dome :(

I'm exhausted & too tired to write more. Goooodnight.

2 days!

Well.. here we go again. Why do I ALWAYS do this when this happens? Goodness, there's something wrong with me. You'd think I like this.. but honestly, I'd rather not have to deal with it. Every time a ____ ____ me, I just ____ it ____.  There's  just no one that ____ me _____. I don't think I've ever had that.. Sad. 

1. You always make me question whether it was the right thing or not..

2. Yeah.. well this is awkward now. Good job.

3. Best. Dream. Ever.. goodness :) I wouldn't mind dreaming that every night.

4. Clone yourself, become a junior again, & move to LLA.. please.

5. Lol, these are always about the same people.

TOUR IN 3 DAYS! So excited (:

Saturday: Went to church, drove to hello sushi with Krista & Matt, got there & found out that Krista & I had no money 'cause Matthew sat on my wallet & made it disappear, got money & went to Maki Yaki, helped Krista get ready for a birthday party, watched the Last Song :)) Reeeeally good movie, but really really sad. Was stranded at Krikorian for a while 'cause no one wanted to drive me =/ Went to boba & got picked up by Andi & Heath, went to Viv's house & met up with everyone else then drove to Katie's.. props to Andi & Victor. Haha. Blahblahblah, went home. Fun day :)

Sunday: Drill @ bryn mawr. I swear, this is the first sunday practice of like all 3 years where we've had everyone there. What a miracle. Went to the mall afterwards with Matt & Jon to get stuff for tour. Jon is such a girl. & now I'm wasting the last bit of my sunday watching Glee (thanks Nick) instead of starting my homework.. & phoneless 'cause my parents were angry at the world tonight. Lalala, the end.

Oh, & happy one year friendshipaversary to Matt Loh!

-- I don't think I've ever gotten as close to ANYONE as fast as we did. How long did it take us? Like one day on that Saturday at camp-out? Haha, good times man. That day pretty much changed everything. Even though you're loud & get on my nerves sometimes, I still can't imagine what things would be like if I hadn't talked to you on this day of last year. You're the closest guy friend I have, & even though I have no idea why I do, I can trust you with anything. Oh, & thanks for the thousands of bags of chex-mix & gallons of soy-milk & such that you've supplied me with over the past year. I'll return the favor someday.. HAH. :) Ily!

♥

Today was just a big ball of wonderful (: I loved today, & I don't even know why. Maybe because it started off well.. had a sub in P.E. = did absolutely nothing. Ran a lap, threw the discuss, & left. 2nd period was the most hilarious thing of my life + Heather brought me brownies. Played balloon volleyball (happy birthday, Aneliis :) &.. oh gahd, funniest thing OF MY LIFE happened. I guess I won't mention it on here.. hahaha. Score-keeped for history review. Chapel was reeeally good today. Song service made up for yesterday's.. lol. We sound pretty bad in pro musica, but it's okay -- we'll get it by tour. Hopefully. Bombed the lit. quiz, but it's okay. Had cupcakes + a popsicle during lunch, got Nick some gangster shorts from the office, Andi popped the balloon :(, played games in the grass, made a chain & trapped people in the awkward circle.. Played diner dash during beliefs.. Geometry. Got ice-cream with Heath, Andi, & Vivs after school & sat in Heather's car for 30 minutes afterwards just talking.. I need more days like this.




1. BAD INFLUENCE! Tsk tsk. & I'm still mad at you.
2. I really like this.. whatever it is we have.. I guess I did make the right choice.
3. Thank you, Nathaniel. I just realized that everything you said was true. You were right when you said nothing would change..
4. AHH, I'm so excited! I can't wait to see it.
5. What do you have against me? Seriously, I've done nothing to you, & yet I always hear about you saying this & that..

IT'S OVER! & everything turned out perfectly.. so much more than what I expected. Nick & Jon, we couldn't have done any of it without you. From banquet announcement to name skit -- you guys were amazing. The room yesterday was beautiful.. Ms. Meyers is a decorating beast. & the slide show was freaking sad.. I teared up & I'm not even a senior. Bravo, Nick + Mrs. Taylor. Next year's is gonna be so sad.. Butttt anyways, I'm just so glad it's over :)) No more worrying or stressing. This song is on repeat atm. Bravo, Miley. One decent song.

When my world is falling apart,
when there's no light to break up
the dark, that's when I look at you.

1. Hm, so now I know how you feel.. felt? Goodness, this is annoying.

2. KEEP YOUR PROMISE.
3. Let's go back to last year.. I liked it better.
4. It's nice to see you normal now :)
5. I'm glad things haven't changed

"The only people you need in your life are the ones that need you in theirs."

^ Aw. Today was a half-day, & yet I was at school until 5:00. Wonderfully spent on planning banquet. Woooo. Made me feel a tad bit better about the whole thing though. It'll work out :)

Reconciled with mah beezy, stuffed boxes with candy for sunday, went to the hospital, came back to school, had a free lunch of skittles, starbursts, & jolly ranchers + pizza that Luke brought to compensate for his tardiness, played monkey snowfight, walked around parent teacher conferences with Jon, had a nice conversation with Mr. Knippy.. haha, beat Jon at the 50 yard dash ;), played imaginary chess with Chandler, went banquet shopping with mi madre & found everything I needed.. success! Good day. & I'm also officially auntie Michelle now (:

Love is just a word until someone comes along & gives it meaning.

I'm in one of those moods.
Empty.
I don't know what it is lately.
Just kidding. Actually, I do.
1. Wondering if I made the right choice. Sure it was the easier one, but should I have risked it? Taken the chance? I don't know. I'll have time to think about that.. later.

3. Today was so useless. 1st period - Did useless drills that made you look like a legit retarded child. 8th - Easy peasy test. Highlight was Heather bringing me soymilk for breakfast. Thanks man. 3rd - Quiz, notes, movie.. boooring. Chapel - I hate the chapels where they make the mission trip kids talk about their "experiences". Highlight: Ryan asking Michael Browning to banquet, haha. Officers meeting, 6th, geometry - same same same. Nothing new. Chem - Made paper airplanes & paper stars while Dr. Benson talked about his iPad. Most useless chemistry period of the whole year. Labs - Most frustrating thing in the world. Thank goodness it's done!

6. How long will this last? I don't know about you, but it's kind of scaring me.

7. You're a douche. I don't like this. I miss ___ ____.

4. You give me something to look forward to everyday :) One of the few people that doesn't get on my nerves daily & who always know how to make my day go a little better.

12. You're one friendship that I never want to lose.

Blah

It's funny how just one little thing could totally ruin your day. It's times like these when I wish I didn't go to LLA.. or at least not have to deal with some of the people there. Goodness. People need to mind their own freaking business.

Banquet: Dear God, please let everything work out. We've been working so hard for this, & we just all want to see it pay off in the end. This next week is gonna be difficult, but please let us be able to work hard & finish everything.

1. Why does drama always seem to circle around you?
2. I need more people like you in my life.
3. I love you, but sometimes you can be so freaking nosy.
4. I miss you. Come back to California.