Here, stalker:

Life is boring. Nothing to update on.
I've been looking for banquet dresses
rather than doing my homework lately.
Why is this so hard!? I wish I was a boy
sometimes. They have it so easy.

1. I'm sorry for all of this, but you sort of brought
it on yourself. All I noticed were the flaws..

2. I wish I had the courage to do what ____
did. But I guess I'm stuck with this.

3. Lately, I thought it actually did change things.
But today it felt like how it did before. It was nice.

4. Jealous? Nah. Your beezy's don't phase me.
HAHAHA.

5. You're a lot more interesting now ;) I guess
that was what I needed to finally realize this.

Spring break III

Spring break is over =/ Twas a good one. Got my wish granted & actually got to go to the beach on Friday (: Went with Cassidy, Nick, & Omar.. & then met up with Max, Sherlene, Jon, & Greg, but we barely hung out since Jon & Greg were busy attempting to climb rocks & what not. Angela's debut on Saturday was funnn ♥ So after certain events & circumstances that happened this weekend, I realized how much I love my parents + family. I take them for granted way too often, but I'm just so thankful to have them.

I'm definitely NOT looking forward to school.. & waking up at 6 in the morning again. The countdown to summer officially begins.. I can't wait. 

Spring Break II

Wednesday: Errands with my parents, took a new passport picture, went to Cassidy's house, played with Naia a.k.a. Dr. Benson, went to Ben's house to pick up Nick, chatted for a bit at Ben's, took Nick & FINALLY had our "photoshoot" in downtown Redlands, walked around looking for cool places to take pictures, went to Hobo's, bought Nick something for jr. sr. banquet.. which he can HOPEFULLY go to, saw a crazy hobo with tourettes, dropped Nick off, went to boba & met up with Jon, went to Carl's Jr. with Cassidy & got some naaasty chicken strips, Jon & Omar rented Paranormal Activity & me & Cassidy chicked out & didn't want to watch it.. but they beat us up until we gave in, went to Cassidy's mom office to watch it, met up with Chandler & Greg, creepy stuff with the T.V. -- wasn't even scary! Scariest part was Jon guessing the time right.. Funniest part: Cassidy scaring Chandler & Greg.

Thursday: Went to drill -- gay, new awkward object -- awkward Max, picked up Omar & went to Rice Box with Jon, Greg, Max, & Sherlene, went to Cassidy's house, dropped Omar off, took a nap in the boba parking lot to kill time, went to Angela's for practice, met up with Casey & Cassidy, rode with Casey to pick up her boyfriend & then went to market night, walked around for a bit, bought kettle corn & cotton candy, observed the indian tribal dance, saw people from church, went to El Pollo Loco so Casey could buy herself a taco.

Spring break;

Friday: Day 1 of home alone weekend. Queen Mary after school, playing the "I've never" game, ballroom dancing with Andi, talking in british accents at Johnny Carino's, Elizabeth's "british" accent which sounded more like Chinese, arrived @ school & let Elizabeth drive my car around the parking lot (I don't know what I was thinking), Vivien drove it next & then Elizabeth hijacked Hannah's car, ghost-riding, drove to Stater's to pick up the supplies :), drove to Compassio, italian cream sodas, went to boba, autocussions in the parking lot, went to Rite-aid, mischief with Jon & Larry.

Saturday: Day 2. Overslept, went to boba & met up with team flux, first time at TH in 2 weeks, messed around & beat Omar at the bicycle game.. twice. aw yeeeah. ate at Hot Chick's, went to blockbuster's & debated which movie to get for like 45 minutes.. & then ended up not getting any because Greg is a pansy, bought ice cream at Stater's, went to Greg's house & baked cookies & a delicious pazookie, watched Mulan, autocussions with Omar, went to In-n-out.

Sunday: Day 3. Took Cassidy to get a haircut at Inland, went shopping, stole the runaway (Nick) from his house, ichat with Grant = major awkward bombs thanks to Cassidy, went to Yogurtlicious, met up with Omar, brought Nick home, drove to Riverside for the start of our adventure, went to the Marilyn Monroe vent, hot cheetoes &  coffee ice cream, night longboarding, sketchy people at Bryn Mawr, rented 2012 & watched it at Cassidy's.

Monday: Parents came home, went to the mall with Shas, Sheryl, Justin, & Larry, met up with Greg, Jon, & Joaquin, ghetto photoshoot in the parking lot, 10% gay :), went to Threshold, went to boba.. pleasant surprise! browsed blockbusters.

Tuesday: Searched for a banquet dress online.. no luck, got bored & picked up Cassidy, got a haircut at Inland, sketchy haircutters.. found a dress for Angela's, picked up Omar, ghetto adventure #2, ate authentic mexican food & was served by a dude named Jesus.. nice! went home, got a call from Cassidy a little bit later.. HAHA, ghetto surprise.

1. If you think I'm gonna text you first, uhm, yeah right.

2. Dang it, I wished it was you.

3. I love you :) You better come back to LLA next year!

4. You're funny. I never really noticed that before.

5. You're sketchy.. you both are. Sketchy people.

Frustrated

Bad news =/

Tired as heeeeck

Hungry

Too lazy to study

3 test tomorrow -__-

Queen Mary trip tomorrow

w/ some of the officers

Parents leaving tomorrow

so I get the house to myself

for the whole weekend. Yess :)

To do list over spring break:

SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP.

That's all.

March needs to hurry up & end already.

1. Ohmygahd, you are so annoying

2. You looked nice today. Dang it.. -__-

3. I'm praying for you ♥ Let's hope

it's not what they said it might be.

4. Your attitude is ridiculous. Keep your

head up man. You could fix this if you just try.

YESSS!

IT'S OVER!! Today was a lovely day ♥ I felt like I was gonna poop out nervousness before the banquet announcement, but I'm so glad it went smoothly & even better than I thought it would :) Everyone did great.. but Nick Deleon, you are AMAZING. I'm so excited for banquet :)

Just three more days until spring break. Dear God, PLEASE let it go by fast. I need a breeeeak.

1. If you ever do that again, I'll slap you. I was so hungry.

2. I hope you understand.. I'm sorry.

3. You definitely deserve better. I hope you realize that soon =/

4. Hmm.. we'll see what you two decide. This will be interesting :)

Unraveling.

As I try to make you see 

that you're everything I think I need 

here on the ground. But you're neither 

friend nor foe. Though I can't seem to 

let you go, one thing that I still know 

is that you're keeping me down.

^ This song.. currently on replay. ♥ it.

I hate this situation. Everything about it.

It feels like everything is happening all at once.

School, banquet planning/announcement,

tests, drill, homework, & THIS to top it off..

= a giant heap of LAME.

Gah. I need some sleep.

Floating

through my mind:

THINGS ARE GOING TO WORK OUT! 

I wish everyone had that mentality.

It's stressful & all, but I know we'll get it together in the end.

It'll be okay =) I'm excited.

Deeeeefinitely not looking forward to this.

I don't want to, but I know I can't keep putting it off.

There's no easy way to say it, though.

BUSYBUSYBUSYBUSY. Everything is busy.

Too many things to do & not enough time. That's what

everything feels like lately. I wish I had more time.

I don't want to lose the BOTH of you.

It makes me sad to see how much you've changed. 

Partner in crime (: Lovely little adventure we had.

We must do it again. & next time we'll park farther. Haha.

Formspring reveals so much about a person.. & with that.. I hope

you're doing okay. I don't know exactly what happened, but

I'm sorry. & I hope you feel better. Eventually (:

Falling out

I can't stop listening to this song at the moment.

My weekend: Friday was uneventful. On saturday, I set my alarm on my phone to 9:30, but I guess my phone turned off in the middle of the night so I ended up waking up at 1:30. No joke. I don't even know how that's possible.. I think something's wrong with me. Went ice-skating later :) It was alright. Except for that one thing that happened.. dumbbb. Slept over @ Heather's afterwards. Her mother makes the most delicious breakfast's. Picked up Nick & then went hiking in the hulda crooks hills. Blah blah blah.. Hm, relaxing weekend. I liked it =)

1. Just thinking about it makes me sad.. Ah, I don't want to do this.
2. I'm sorry you had to see that.
3. Lol you are so obvious. Good one, buddy. I could tell, & so could everyone else.
4. I kinda wish it was you rather than ______.
5. I can't believe it! I'm going to miss you, & I don't even know why.

FORMSPRING is possibly the gayest website ever created, but I'm hooked. At least now I have something else to waste my life on, other than facebook. People are so nooosy! It's annoying, but at the same time it's funny hearing what everyone thinks/has to say (:

Life lately:

School is boring, as usual. Yesterday was quite lovely though =) I love half-days. It felt like a friday. Yesterday: Major awkward balloon after school.. had to cut that string before it flew away. Went to Eureka!Burger with the guys & had a long discussion about the various awkward animals/objects. Ex: Awkward dinosaur gets hit by awkward comet.. & awkward giraffe & dinosaur races. Awkward balloon seemed to be the all-time favorite though. The food was definitely worth my nine bucks, except I felt like a hippo afterwards. Went to T.H. after & then to Michael's & Target. Had a deeep talk sitting at the food tables. Funny stuff =) Realized a lot of things & learned a bunch of things.. Good advice. "If I were best friends with Brad Pitt.. who would you notice first?" Hahaha.

1. Seriously, thank you for that talk. I haven't really been able to talk about that whole thing with anyone yet. It was nice.

2. *Awkward ballooon. Most definitely.

3. Thank you for being so sweet :) It made my day.

4. I'm so thankful for the both of you. You: I enjoy your company & you're so funny :) Thanks for always having my back. You: Even though you're mean to me most of the time, I'm still glad I've gotten to know you better this past year. & thanks for helping with everything.

Lame.

- Thank GOODNESS February is over. February was definitely mucho no bueno. February was the peak of people's nosiness. At first it was annoying, but now it's just getting old -__- I wish people would just STOP & just leave it all alone. People need to stop assuming such ridiculous-ness. Such unnecessary confusion this month. It all just needs to stop. This month will be different.. 

- I swear, people at LLA can be the worst.. Reading people's formsprings makes me sad. People are just so rude. It's like all they care about it just putting people down. I honestly don't know why I made one. I'm definitely going to regret it later..

- School is deathly boring. Junior year is moving slow & fast at the same time. Every week seems so long. At the beginning of each week, I'm already wishing for the weekend. But now there's only 3 months left of school? Where'd all the time go?

- Too many things going on right now.

1. I miss you =/ I hope we can fix things soon.

2. I'm sorry, I know all of this must be hard on you too. I don't know what to do.

3. Uh.. here it goes again.. Time for the awkward-ness.

4. Dang it, why can't you be in my grade.

5. Thanks ____ & ____ for helping me with all of this.