Hi blogger =) I kinda miss you.

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Happy birthday, Matt =)

Starting fresh.

Made a tumblr because I was getting tired of blogger.

I'll post up the link later.. maybe :)

I am seriously amazed at how well the school year has started off. These past two days have been the best. Good sign, yes? 

Senior year, I have a good feeling about you :]

Highlights -- 

1. Church family/CLAN photoshoot @ Ford park! :D It was nice being together with everyone again after such a long time.. I've missed 'em ♥ I'll miss you, My-my =/

2. Bryn Mawr reunion @ Macaroni Grill with Donna, Suchit, Risha, & Larry. Reminiscing about elementary school.. It's crazy how much we still remember everything. Reminded me why 5th grade is still one of my all-time favorite years :) Took a whole bunch of pictures afterwards & then Donna told us to follow her to somewhere but she wouldn't tell us where.. Let's just say that it was one of the prettiest & coolest places I've ever been around here. & I had no idea it existed. Made me wish I had a ... Nevermind. Hahaha.

Overall, it was just a lovely day. Thank you, God ♥

1. Why does it seem like I ALWAYS happen to see you/bump in to you?

2. I have like no classes with you this year! Estaba muy triste.. :(

3. Oh boy. I can already tell that this is going to be a problem this year.. lol.

4. Still waiting.. 

Seeeeeniors =)

Best last first day of high school. Ever.

Okay, maybe the actual SCHOOL part wasn't that great, but everything after that was pretty much amazing :)) After school -- bumping Justin Bieber @ full blast in the car, Baja Fresh with everyyybody, last day of football tryouts in the SMOTHERING heat, back to Heather's house to get ready & shower for handshake.. SUPERHEROES ♥ Thush, Hannah, Andi, Lydia, & Liz came over laterrr.. our superhero boxers/underwear were pretty ballin', I must say. Got to school & painted everyone & such. FIRETRUCKS. Aw yeeeeah. Me, Liz, & Lydia got to ride at the top of the big firetruck :)) coolest thing ever.. entrance was pretty sweeet :D & we actually did well at all the events FOR ONCE. Did the huge long handshake chain after.. really gross 'cause everyone put crap on their hands :( THEN for the best part of the nighttt.. Me & Liz made football :)) We were screaming our heads off when we saw the list & I hit Liz in the face with my camera.. hahaha. But oh mygoodness.. I am so unbelievably happy :) I DON'T HAVE TO TAKE P.E. ANYMORE. Yes ♥. Pictures & I-HOP afterwards with everybody.. Mmm, today was pretty amazing ♥

Class of 2011, you guys made me proud today :) I knew we could do it!

Had to say bye to Jonah this morning :(, senior coming out practice @ school, hung out with Ben & Omar afterwards, watched Hard Times of RJ Berger.. dumb show lol. Ate at Angelo's, bought water balloons at Rite-Aid, threw them at random people in Loma Linda, target practice, back to school, ran slow because of my gayhamstring, went to Heather's, ate a banana & banana bread, drove back to school to wet Santhush & Ryan, went to Manna afterwards w/them, went to Stater's to buy a banana, went back to Heather's, talked in front of her house for a while.. I'm gonna miss summer days like this. But sort of excited to start school. Mhm, that is all.

rev21:4

Miss you already ♥ 

This weekend was tough. But on the bright side.. I got to spend the whole weekend with Baby Jonah [: & it was nice being able to see & hang out with everyone again on Sunday. Shopping, bike rides, trampolines, volleyball, boba, stealing cars, air hockey, fooseball, apples to apples.. fun night :) Buuuuut on the down side.. Jonah & my sister are leaving tomorrow afternoon & I pulled my hamstring or somethin'.. Hm.. nervous for tomorrow & Thursday. I need bananas.

Friday the 13th

I miss thissssss.. freshman year campout.

Dear you, you, you, you, & you,

Sorry. Hahahaha. I guess I did sort of flake.. 

I'll admit it :D Maybe next time, yeah?

Broke in to Cassidy's house. She's dumbbb & made me wait outside for like 30 minutes. Went to Compassio later. Cassidy's lovers were there.. awkwaaaard. Talked outside after. Went on an adventure with Cassidy, Omar, Greg, & Ben. Rest of the night.. haha, funny stuff. That is all :)

1. Fix your freaking ghetto GPS. Goodness, we could've died!

2. Don't leeeeeeave me! :( Take me with you! I'm coming to visit.

3. You're actually really chill when you're not.. (& no, I don't mean high)

4. Hah this song.. oh goodness. Memories. I miss yoooou.

This weekend.. not looking forward to it =/

Meteors

Today -- Officers meeting at 11.. it was actually semi-productive! I'm actually excited about senior coming out.. but only because Nick is a genius. Met up with Matt, Ryan, Santhush, & Ben at ford park to play football & watch old men play frisbee golf(?). Matt "sprained" his thumb. Triste. Went to football clinics after. Thank goodness I'm not as out of shape as I thought.. but according to Lydia & Elizabeth (they lied to me), they never ran as much in clinics as much as today. Lucky me! But it was really fun still :) Not getting my hopes up though O_O Went to R&K's house afterwards.. watched old embarassing youtube videos of ours & the double rainbow & that one rape song.. lol. "You don't get it!? Say it fast!" ... "Really? Riteaidice.. riteaid.. riteaidicecream.. I don't get it!" -__- Then went to Bryn Mawr with Risha, Krista, Greg, Omar, & Ben to watch the "meteor shower". We did absolutely nothing, but everything was really funny for some reason. Greg needs to throw his freaking BB (is that how you spell it? Beebee?) gun away. Made a plan for tomorrow :) Hopefully it works & we don't get caught haha. Had to go home early though because my parents decided to exercise their asian parenting & everyone didn't want to drive all the way to Yucaipa :( But it's okay 'cause today was a lovely day & I'm satisfied. 

P.S. Justin Bieber ♥ HAHA.

Thoughts

"It’s safe to fall if you just trust 

the ground that you stand on."

Schedule = fail.

1. Spanish 3 = ZERO period -__- Debating whether I should still take it or not. But for once in my life, I'd love it if I didn't have to wake up at 6 every morning.

2. Ms. Phillips isn't teaching Precal anymore. Yay, Mr. Jarrard.

3. No more tennis/swimming.. & any other P.E. period other than zero period wouldn't work for my schedule. Which means I'd have to make football or volleyball in order to even be able to take Spanish 3.

4. College prep with Sandiford. 10 page paper & presentation? YES.

5. Biblical lit? I've never even heard of that class..

6. I can't take ochem anymore because I still need a full year of applied arts :(

7. Oh, & I have 6 classes with Matthew Loh. Shoot me. (Hahaha. But seriously)

Sorry for the complaining, but I'm still really frustrated. I was hoping I'd be one of those seniors with like 4 classes where their first class didn't start until like.. 10.

Senior year.. I'm excited & looking forward to it, but I'm also scared of the expectations our class has to fill O_O I'm scared of the work it'll take to do well in my classes (actually no, nevermind). I'm scared of drill. I'm scared of having to think/worry about which colleges I'll end up going to (PUC? Or non adventist?). Trying not to think about any of this, though. I want senior year to be different & I want to be able to enjoy it as much as I can before it's over. 

I just realized that every year since 8th grade, I've had a boyfriend. Except junior year. How weird is that? Told you guys I could do it :) I'm not a relationship kind of person.. they never work out for me lol. I think it's because of my lack of emotion, haha. I just feel sorry for the people that need a boy/girl in their life to feel complete & to feel happy. Your happiness shouldn't have to be based off of someone else, ya know? & that's what I hated about freshman & sophomore year. I don't like having to depend on someone or having someone depend on me. & besides, I'm horrible at communicating anyways. I always forget to reply to texts & I never answer my phone.

Wow. That was weird. I like never talk/think about these things.

I've been in a very contemplative mood lately, I've noticed.

I blame it on being jet lagged & having nothing better to do

when I'm lying in bed trying to fall asleep. 

1.  Does this mean you don't _____ our __________?

2. Your mother is lovely. Too bad you don't take after her :)

3. Lol I caught you smiling. & I think I know why.

4. Thank you for still running with me.. even though we were

only wearing socks.. in a muddy & wet field.

5. I'm trying to help you! But it's getting so frustrating :p

"Do what makes you happy, be with who makes you smile, laugh as much as you breathe, & love as long as you live."

Jet lagged x93842984

Yeah, uhm, forget what I said in my last blog entry about not feeling jet lagged at all. It's currently 6:43 a.m. & I have yet to fall asleep.. What have I been doing? Laid in bed, went to the bathroom, read a book, learned a song on the ukulele, drank some chocolate soymilk, read my yearbook again, chose an outfit for today, cleaned my room, watched the sunrise, watched the replay CD in the back of my yearbook.. & since I've run out of things to do, I guess I'll put up pictures from my trip.

Mmm, Indo food (:

My dad doesn't know how to jump.

Baby Jonah =)

Palawan -- first day

Most gorgeous sunsets I've ever seen ♥

I love my family =)

Nanay ♥

Aw, great grandchildren :)

Mmm.. I'll upload the rest on facebook or something laterrr.

Goooood morning :)

I love

Pleasant surprises (:

Arrived early this morning from the Philippines!
I have never been on an airplane this much in my
life. A total of 10 times in the span of 3 weeks O_o
Exhausting. But so worth it. I miss every minute of it.
I miss my cousins. & my nanay. & the green mango shakes.
& the beach. & being away from here for a change.
But I guess.. I'm sort of kind of glad to be back :)
(Pictures laaater. Too lazy to upload.)

Only got about 4 hours of sleep on the plane ride
here, but strangely enough, I don't feel that jet
lagged at all. Hm. Something's wrong with me.
Went to watch Inception with Krista, Risha, Greg,
Sherlene, & Max. It was nice seeing them again :)
2nd time watching Inception = downer. Picked up
my surprise from Matt's house afterwards. Thank
you for all the pounds of fat you've supplied me with
over the years, Matthew ♥

1. Thanks for the phone call! It was nice catching up with you :)
2. You seriously needa chill. I don't know what's you're deal mann..
3. Hahaha @ what she told me.. it would've been super cute.
4. Tired of waiting. Maybe I should just give it up..
5. I wish you ______ our __________ more than this.

Tigers love pepper. They hate cinnamon.

Just came home from the most beautiful place I have ever been to in my life. I come home on Sunday, but I don't want to leave. Boooo, California.

1. Were those about me? I hope they were..

2. I'm kind of scared to see you when I get back.

3. I don't know whether it's jealousy or selfishness.

4. It's so hard to talk to you now.. How depressing.

5. I miss your friendship.

6. Can't wait to see you! :))

Vacation pt. I

Bali, seeing Nicole :), swimming, eating, banana pancakes, eating, 3 dollar raybans, eating, Philippines, swimming, mosquito bites, Mall of Asia, sitting, talking, more mosquito bites, more eating, shopping.. That's seriously all my family does during vacations.. eating, shopping, sitting around, swimming.

I love being here & after hearing all of that, I really don't want to go back.. It's nice just being around family & all that.

Got some bad news a few days ago.. I hate getting phone calls really late at night. It's always something bad. My grandpa died on.. Friday, I think? Prayers for my mom/family.

Note*

I wish everyone could hug it out & be friends.

I miss you guys :(

- I'm sorry I couldn't be here for your birthday, but I hope you had a lovely one with lost of cake & goodness & treats.

- I wish I there so I could help you through this! I'm really sorry I dragged you in to all of this :( Be strong. Everything will get better eventually ♥

- I really wonder what you're doing with all this extra free-time..

- We better hang out a bunch when I get back & before you leave.. I still have your I ♥ NY shirt!

- TEA PARTY WHEN I GET BACK!

- Hurry up & get back already. You needa take us out.

- Let's watch a scary movie :) Paranormal Activity 2, yes?

- I hope your.. situation is getting better. & I hope you're sleeping more!

- Had a dream about you last night. What you said.. I hope it's true.

Toodalooo.

Leaving for the airport in approximately 3 hours! & for once, I'm actually glad to be leaving/going on vacation. Lately, this summer hasn't exactly been what I expected it would be like & I'm just excited to spend the next 3 weeks with just my family/cousins (: Too many things going on here.. I'm ready to just reeeeeelax! + I get to see Nicole! Excited to go to Bali with her :) Not looking forward to the 12 hour flight, though.. but it's okay, 'cause I'm bringing my SAT book with me on the plane to study. HAHA oh goodness, I'm lame. I don't know who reads this, but I hope all of you have a lovely 3 weeks! Be back on August 8 :)

1. Do you not realize how _______ the things you've ____ lately have been? I'm sorry you think that, but it really wasn't my _________. I tried to ___ things with that _______, but I guess it didn't matter. Just wish we could've ______ _____.

2. Ohmygoodness, I hope I get to see you at least once before you leave! 'Cause I don't know when the next time would be if I didn't.. :( Boo. No more ___ _____.. HAHA.

3. I owe the both of you soooo much. I ♥ you guys :)

4. I miss the __________ we had the ______ going in to _________ year.

5. I'M SO GLAD YOU'RE BACK. Goodness, it seems like it's been forever since the last time I've seen you! But now I'm the one that's gonna be gone. Boo, timing. I hope you don't leave before I come back! I have so much to tell you & I still needa hear about your stories :)

6. I can't wait to see the look on your face when you see your drawing. Hahaha..

Gag

Wednesday: Shopping date with mi madre, vbs, pazoookie's + strawberry lemonade at BJ's -- me & Risha are fatties, Greg's house, finally got to hang out with autocussioners, sat in the car during Krista's driving lessons, longboarding with Krista, mac pictures, sunday morning cover video..

Friday: Keeping Up With the Kardashians, picking out outfits for senior pictures tomorrow, called Matt to come to vbs with me :), market night with Shasta, Matt, Sharde + all her other friends, saw THE prettiest rainbow, summer rain ♥, kettle corn.. mmm, wanted to watch Despicable Me but ended up not going =/, Nicole Duggan = all Matt could talk about bahaha, went to Rubio's w/ Kyle Ilio :) & Chiara, texting Risha + Krista.. haha, I love how I can totally read Risha's mind when all she texts me is one word.

1. Thank you for being my source of entertainment lately.

2. Ohmygoodness, could you try any harder?
3. I've missed you! It was nice hanging out with you :)
4. Thank you for that -- it made my day! You're too sweet.
5. Thanks for having my back lately.. I love you ♥
6. UC Irvine, yes? We needa have that study party!

Blup.

Sushi, drove around for an hour trying to find people to throw water balloons at with Heather, VBS, "omg look what happened to Michelle's car!", threw water balloons at Max & Greg :), picked up Nick @ Indo vbs & went to Heather's house, watched Pretty Little Liars & Shutter Island.. creeeepy movie.

1. Boo, I wish I could know =/ Oh wells.
2. My theory worked! I hope you finish it :) It's a good sign!
3. It was nice finally being able to hang out with you!
4. Wooop, I love pleasant surprises.. nice seeing you ;) Hahaha.
5. You better not take long.. I'm getting tired of waiting.

Interesting

That word describes today PERFECTLY.
Woke up to Krista's text, went to school to drop stuff off, waited for Krista @ her dentist appointment, made her think we were going to the mall but surprised her & took her to Threshold instead :), went back to her house, decided to get boba, ____________, awkward moment in Mana donuts, chilled in the laundromat, back to VBS, I love little kids, but that was the most tiring thing ever -__-, didn't know what to do afterwards so randomly went to Hulda Crooks with Krista & Risha & talked.. quality bonding time lol, phone call to Nathaniel.. nice way to end the night -- thanks!

Thoughts:
- Krista, you jinxed it.
- It was nice seeing you today.. Ferrenstein :)
- Shooting star syndrome. I ♥ that! Thanks for telling me.
- Lol guess we don't need to do our plan anymore after all..
- Thanks for listening to my story. All of them.
- Talking with you two made me realize just how much..
- You're confusing.
- Story time? I think yes.
- I don't miss you very much. Different..
- 3 weeks should be good enough, right?
- I hope you finish your dream. That prayer better work!
- Is it a sign? Hahahah. Seems like it.
- "Remember that one time when.." I hate how it's not like that anymore.
- You're a shady individual. You lied!

Hm, lots to think about tonight.
♥, mo.

My circadian

is broken.
I reeeally need to start sleeping earlier.

1. You got this. You need to start putting your
needs in front of others.. You already give so much.

2. I miss you. But for now, I'll try helping you out..

3. I'm thankful I asked & I'm glad I heard both sides.
I never should've judged & assumed so many things..
I still don't exactly know what to believe, but at least
I have a clearer understanding. I'm sorry everyone
thinks so poorly of you. Usually, it IS your own fault.
But at the same, most people judge you based off of
the person they knew years ago. Not how you are now.
It may seem like the same person, but I hope what
you said was true when you said you "grew up".

4. I still keep thinking back to that night & how happy
I was. Thank yooou for that. (:

HappySaturdays

Went to sabbath school @ the University for the first time in years! Played falling down on Ryan's ipod w/ Cassidy & then some old guy comes up to Santhush & blames him for not paying attention.. haha. I ♥ communion. I wish they could package the little bread squares & sell it. Went to Souplantation afterwards with Cassidy, Santhush, & Ryan. NEVER AGAIN will I eat out with Santhush.. he took 2 freaking hours. Back to Cassidy's.. Bought tie-dye supplies + shirts last night, but when we opened the shirts, we found out they were like 10 sizes too small.. they'd fit a 5 year old. Tested out our tie-dying skills anyways. VBS meeting. Back to Cassidy's house & got picked up by Ryan+Thush to go get Cassidy's lip pierced O_o KRISTA, if you're reading this: I took a video of it on your camera.. so please upload it :) Met up with Matt + Baby John @ In-n-out.. then bryn mawr, hulda crooks, stole Matt's car & went to boba, longboarding, fireworks.. mMhm.

I like summer.

Booompop

She has future plans and dreams at night. When they tell her life is hard, she says, "that's alright."

Broke into Cassidy's house, woke her up, plucked Nick's eyebrows/thighs, sat around, listened to weird music, went to Nick's, ate his cereal, looked at old pictures, let Keira leave video comments, went to McDonalds, dropped Nick off, followed Jason to Danny's house, went to boba, back to Cassidy's, sour patch watermelon gummy's ♥, compassio, talked with Nathaniel, talked with Cassidy, went to wal-mart & bought shirts + tie-dye stuff, dropped her off.. MHM.


Nathaniel: I don't know if you read this.. but thank yooooou. You are an amazing listener. You always make me feel so much better. & I'm glad I was sort of able to repay you with all the times you've had to listen to my ridiculous stories. But I honestly hope everything goes well for you. You, of all people, seriously deserve the best.

For now..

1. Like? I like how you'd entertain me every day with your crazy stories. I like how we'd make fun of ____ & ____. I like how easy you are to talk to & how easily we got along with each other. I like how you understood me, even if I didn't have to tell you about it first. Dislike? The fact that you're leaving me here :( First impression? Jeez this girl is intimidating.. Hahaha. Confession? I feel closer with you than ____.

2. Like? I like.. how easy you are to be around, how you make me laugh, how I can talk to you about stupid things, but when I need to talk to you about something serious, you're there to listen & give advice. Oh, & I like how you put up with my jerkiness. Haha. Dislike? You can be a girl sometimes. First impression? I don't even remember.. Confession? You're sorta charming. Haha.

3. Like? I like how honest & real you are, how you work hard for what you want, your taste in music :), how nice you are to me, but also how you tell me what I should fix about myself, how fun it is to make fun of you.. Dislike? When you get sad. First impression? Super asian.. Confession? I still don't know what my birthday card symbolizes. You should tell me.

4. Like? I like.. how I can classify you as the nicest guy I know, how easily you can read me, how you always knew when something was wrong.. there's so much more. What I like most, though? Your advice giving & listening skills. Dislike? We don't talk as much as I'd like. First impression? He looks like ___. Confession? I'll tell you when we talk..

O_o

Err, too lazy to update about government trip. PICTURES!

This weekend:
Friday - Eclipse w/ Matt & Tim. Compassio.
Vespers. Phone call w/ Krista. Sooo frustrating.
Saturday - Filipino church. Nasty healthy teriyaki food w/
Krista, Risha, & Sherlene. Spammed facebook with videos
to each other. Finished Angus, Thongs, & Perfect Snogging
at Krista's. Pizza. Alice in Wonderland. Sleeep over.
Sunday - Failed plan to Christine's beach house in SD.
Went to Subway, then back to Krista's. Watched Mean
Girls w/ Risha while the other two fell asleep. Picked up
their Australian friends then went to Santa Monica for
July 4th. I love taco stands. & portos ♥. & yummy pastries.
Today: Woke up at 3:24 p.m. -___- WASTE. I'm setting
my alarm for 10 next time. Cuca's + Toy Story 3 later (:

1. I'm so excited for you to be in high school next year!
2. There needs to be more boys like you at school.
3. So many things I want/need to say to you. Too bad I can't.
4. I have never been so frustrated. Seriously? Grow up.
5. Reading that.. exactly what I didn't want to happen.
Hurts =/

=/

Prayers for Nell & her family. It's all just so sad.. God, please be with her. It'll be tough, but she's such a strong girl & I know she'll be able to pull through this. Lesson learned: Don't take things for granted. Things can change in an instant, so just be thankful for everything & appreciate the people you have in your life.

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Got back from government trip yesterday! It was soo much fun being able to chill with everyone for those 10 days, but I'm definitely glad to be home. I'll write about it + post up pictures later.

1. I can't believe you seriously did that, & over something so stupid also. I never would've guessed it was you. Maybe him, but definitely not you. There's better ways to solve problems than doing something as immature as what you did. Goodness, why has everyone been so disappointing this year? & not just people who don't matter. It's the people who I actually care about who've surprised me the most this year.

2. You're still the same exact person you were freshman year.

3. We definitely need to catch up! There's so much I still need to tell you.

4. You sneaky beaver! Never would've seen that one coming either.
Goodness, my friends are just so..

♥summer

I love my dad (: Had a lovely father's day today.

Leaving for government trip tomorrow morning!
First stop: NEW YORK. YES! I'm so excited.

June 25 = FINALLY LEGAL. Goodbye 11 p.m.
curfews & not being able to drive anyone!
Adventures when I come back.

I miss this. Beach trip when I come back, yes? (:

^____^

I woke up this morning & just had a feeling it would be a GOOD DAY.

& it was =) Exceptionally good Friday.

Woke up early enough to have breakfast for the first time this week, finished my homework last night + having Pastor Mark as our sub in government = fooseball all class period ♥, finally got an A & not just an A- on a test, DONE with summer school, went to Krista's house & watched Angus, Thongs, & Perfect Snogging while waiting for her to get out of the shower, went to Pickup Sticks, chattered, dropped her off & went home, went shopping with mi madre, came home, report card :)

-- I was looking through pictures from this year & realized how much I'm gonna miss junior year. 10x better than sophomore year, & almost, if not just as good, as freshman year. First year without a boyfriend in high school = no drama. Pro musica. Grew closer with Katie. Drill was way less stressful than last year. Threshold. Grew closer with Jon. Finally able to drive. I actually tried in school this year & it paid off. Junior/senior announcement & banquet turned out amazing. Elizabeth, Lydia, Andi, Heather, Vivien, Hannah = ♥.. awkward circles + ghosting :) fooseball every day = best homeroom EVER. Such a fun year ♥ But definitely ready for senior year =)

P.S. Lakers = 2010 champions = happy (:

Verano

So far:
Compassio on Friday & then went to Nubi afterwards with Matt. Santa Monica on Saturday for Tracy's graduation lunch. Got a new phone.. FINALLY. Got home & then hung out with Omar + Cassidy. Watched The Killers -- laaaaame movie. Good thing Ashton Kutcher was in it. Spent pretty much the whole day at Risha & Krista's house on Sunday. "Worked out" with Krista, watched the Laker game, made fun of Demi Lovato's dance moves, had a mini asthma attack, ate enough garlic bread to last a month -__-, watched a Walk to Remember..

Today:
Summer school. That class goes by soo slow >_< The fooseball breaks are the only things keeping me from going insane.. I'm not built to sit in one spot to listen to lectures for 4 hours. But on the bright side, I aced my first test today.. after doing bad on the last two -__- Ohmy, I better end up with an A in that class. Picked up Krista afterwards & went to Maki Yaki & met up with Risha + Sherlene. Then came home & got a call from Threshold.. Turns out I owe $83 for overdue fees & blahblahblah. I miss going climbing =| I wish I could go more this summer, but I'm gonna be so busy. But anyways, I'm officially broke now. Woop.

"Maybe the truth was, it shouldn't be easy to
be amazing. Then everything would be. It's the
things you fight for and struggle with before
earning that have the greatest worth. When
something's difficult to come by, you'll do that
much more to make sure it's even harder,
if not impossible, to lose."

Feeling a little

down in the dumps =|

& then I found this video & it made me feel a little bit better :)

"I'll buy you expensive chocolate. I'll shower you with kisses. I'll give you flowers. I'll make every moment magical ♥"

1. Everything was fine.. & then one little thing happened & it seemed like it changed everything. But the total opposite of what I thought would happen. I didn't think it would have this much of an impact. I just don't want to have to worry about this throughout the summer.. But then I think about before, & I realized how much things have changed & it makes me sad. It's like deja vu, except I never thought I'd be in this position. I just wish I could go back & fix this. I wish it could go back to how it was before.. when I was worrying about it, but not because I was directly involved..

2. I thank God for people like you. For being someone I can just hang out with & chill.. no drama to worry about, no gossip.. just having fun & doing whatever. I can never forget what a great friend you were ____ year. Unlike ____, you stuck up for me. I didn't have the feeling that everything was always a competition.. that feeling I always had with ____. You even forgave me after that whole text message incident.. There was a reason I chose you. I could trust you & I knew that you'd always have my back. I miss you =/ But I can't wait to hang out w/you this summer when you & I come back :)

3. Seeing that almost made me tear up :( I honestly don't know what I'm going to do with myself. Whenever I think of ____ ____, I think of you. Seeing you/talking to you every day was like routine. I'm going to miss making fun of ____ with you & listening to all your crazy stories about ____ ;) We got so close this year, & I wish that could've happened sooner. I'm gonna miss you so much next year.

4. No matter how much of a O_o you may be, I don't think I can ever get tired of you. Well.. other than those two weeks. Haha. But when everyone else is getting on my nerves, as much as you may be getting on my nerves also, I still choose to talk to you. & I guess your O_o-ness, as much as it genuinely ____ me out sometimes, is also sort of flattering. In a way.

- Sigh, I really wish I was going to gradnight this year =/ Boo, Mr. Bancarz.
- I wish my dad would quit being so anal about everything lately.
- I'm craving a surprise right now. Something nice. To cheer me up.
- Feeling nostalgic.

I'm finally a

SENIOR!
It hasn't really hit me yet. That & the fact that 2010 is leaving & isn't coming back =/ School definitely won't be the same without them. They were so much fun to be around & had so many amazing people I'll definitely miss next year. BUT IT'S OKAY 'cause we're FINALLY seniors =) Just one more year.. oh my.

I don't know whether it was ____. If I could go back & take time to think about it, I probably would've done something differently. But I don't know how ____ ____, so I can't really say anything. But ____ being ____ doesn't necessarily make it a good thing.. that's probably just as bad. I'm ____. I know that went against what I told myself I wouldn't do, but I guess it's ____ ____. But I'm not going to worry about it. It'll work out eventually (:

It's finally summer & I have a feeling it's going to be a good one.

12am

Quick little blog before I go to bed.

Yesterday: Canton Bistro for cousin's grad lunch, back home to "study" a.k.a. watching reruns of ANTM for an hour, went to LLU for cousin's graduation, saw ____ (: haha, got picked up by Risha & drove to Shasta's house to sleepover, took pictures :)), prank-calls, "with the sound of THAT voice, I wouldn't mind being stalked by you" HAHA, Hostel, The Notebook, creepy riddles.

Today: Had "crepes" for breakfast.. total fail. Played with Isabel, got picked up, attempted to study for chem all day, posted up a status on facebook which Dr. Benson saw -__- lol, went on aim for like the 3rd time this month.. it's a new record for me, interesting conversations.. mm, I have no idea why I'm still up. I was supposed to go to bed like twenty minutes ago.

1. You're one of the few. You always keep me questioning..
2. I really wish our "friendship" seemed more like an actual friendship rather than a ______.
3. This is getting out of hand. Seriously. Why can't you be more like ___? O_o
4. Everyday, you just become more & more interesting to me.
5. (: Seeing you always brightens up my day.

endoftheroad =|

Last official pro musica concert of the year today @ the Inland Filipino church =/ Teared up yet again while singing Draw Me Nearer.. but only because Mr. Knippy was like sobbing midway through :( Went to Inland afterwards with Risha, Krista, Chandler, & Greg. Went to Rite-Aid & bought ice cream, then went back to Krista's house & chilled in her room for like an hour. Got ready & left to go to the pro musica banquet. Fuuuun stuff. Last time singing with everyone as a group like that.. I'm gonna miss it ♥ Then went to Musicfest for a bit with Jon & Matt. Got to watch Cathy Nguyen. She's so adorable! & took a picture with Passion. Wooooop! What a good day (:

1. So you're starting to REALLY bug me lately.
2. YOU'RE SO HEARTLESS. You better freaking cry next week!
3. Oh my, pleasant surprise much? (:
4. Haha, I love how I always catch you ___ at ___.
5. Seeing you makes me ecstatic + sad at the same time.

5days

Today was a gooood day (:

& I'm not really sure why.

Probably because I have nothing to worry about anymore. Lit. test is over.. chem midterm is over. Nothing to worry about until finals next week (: + I finished my government research paper already, so I don't needa worry about doing that either. Woooop.

Teared up twice in pro musica today while the seniors were practicing Draw Me Nearer. Ohmygoodness, I am gonna be SO sad when they perform it on Saturday =/ I'm gonna miss so many of them. I want summer to come already, but at the same time, I don't because I don't want any of them to leave. Next year definitely won't be the same.

1. You two are such cuties. Oh my, why can't they be juniors? HAHA.

2. You better write a lot, beeezy.

3. It would make me SO happy if you signed my yearbook (:

4. Uh, that was a really freaking random text message.

5. Sorry =/ You still needa show me.

Flustered.

On my mind:
1. I can't even begin to imagine how
easy school/life would be right now
if it weren't for literature.

2. So many things to do.. & yet, I'm sitting
here on blogger with a tab open for
twitter, youtube, & facebook.
Woop -- I fail at managing my time.

3. My forgetfulness mixed with my
procrastination tendencies = 0 out of
5 tickets sold for the pro musica
banquet on saturday.. & the ticket
money is due tomorrow.

4. I WANT TO GO TO GRADNIGHT -__-
Mr. Bancarz, WHY did you have to schedule
summer school to start that day?

5. I have a detention tomorrow for ditching
chapel that I still needa clear.. & I have no
idea how I'm going to do that in time for the
MD meeting that I'm supposed to go to during lunch.

6. My room is disgustingly messy.
If it weren't for all the girly
furniture + decorations, it
could pass as a guy's room.

7. Why does time always seem to
move TEN TIMES SLOWER the l
ast few days before summer vacation?

8. I can't wait until government trip.. & July.

9. Oh hey, I have a chemistry midterm
tomorrow! Great. I just remembered.
Gah, tonight's gonna be a long night =/

10. I still need to sign your yearbook too. SO
MUCH TO DO. Why does time go by so fast
when it seems like I have so much to still do,
but goes slow when I WANT it to speed up.

Overwhelmed. Just 6 more days.

Saturdays

TODAY: Choir concert @ Indo church. Kevin said I don't look Filipino.. lol. Went with Katie to get lunch at some thai restaurant but ended up only getting dessert.. it was soo yummy. It was this coconut milk thing with huge tapioca balls in it. Yum. Went back to the Indo church to pick up Matt & Shasta then went to Macaroni Grill for Sherlene's surprise lunch (: Played pictionary, spent a freaking long time trying to pay the bill. Went back to the university & made music videos in the car w/Shas & Matt (: The concert was super sad.. I teared up on Draw Me Nearer & Amazing Grace.. Next year is going to be so different without Mr. Knippy.. I'll miss him a lot :( Went to boba afterwards with Hannah, Heather, Jon, & Matt. Then met up with Matt, Tim, Kyle, Evan & some other people @ bryn mawr to go night boarding (: Fun stuff. I ran over my pinky toe & it really hurts now, though =/

1. Gahd, you think you're so funny. You're so inconsiderate/rude.
2. I like being around you guys (: Makes me happyyyy.
3. I'm gonna miss you playing with my hair next year =/
4. Your voice makes me melt. Hahahaha.
5. If you don't try out, I'm definitely gonna do some fasting :p

III.

THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO IN YUCAIPA.
I'm so freaking bored out of my mind right now. Someone, please move out here. Come be my neighbor & keep me company. My source of entertainment is sitting on a bench @ the end of my street & watching cars. I have no life -___-
---> BENCH. Goodness, that's an old picture. Taken like 2 years ago.

Today: Ultimate frisbee, got Joaquin in trouble in chem :), history, sat @ the lunch tables during lit. while Matt & Heather had their own little conversation.. I don't understand them, talked w/Katie -- I'm gonna miss that girl next year =/, got free pizza @ lunch, boycotted the caf?, beliefs, geometry -- I love that class right now.. it's so easy, finally made up my chem test + midterm.. didn't know how to do 2 questions on the midterm & I'm pretty sure I got some others wrong =( Ruined my day. Ohhh well! Got home, sat around, did nothing, facebook, decided to do something productive -- stole my dad's iPod, replaced all his music with mine, went longboarding around the neighborhood, sat @ the bench waiting for the sunset & listened to Jack Johnson for the rest of the time. I can't wait until summer.. I just wanna get out of the house already. I'm tired of living in the middle of nowhere :p

1. Your blog entries are entertaining.
2. You make me smile every time I see you (:
3. I wish you were in my grade.
4. I can't wait to see you this summer! =)

II.

"Once, when she was six years old, she had fallen from a tree, flat on her stomach. She could still recall that sickening interval before breath came back into her body.

Life has reached a plateau. Nothing interesting & nothing exciting lately. Summer needs to hurry up & come faster.

Now, as she looked at him, she felt the same way she had felt then, 

breathless, stunned, nauseated.

Pt. 1

Beach vespers was yesterday -- rented one of those bike thingy's with Hannah, Heather, Lydia, & Elizabeth.. attempted going all the way to the pier, but we're all fat so that failed. Me & Heather stole baby John's & Nick's two seater bike & rode around on that for the rest of the hour :) Ate, ghosted, tackled, made s'mores, took pictures, worship, gave each other yellow roses, got a yellow rose from Katie :), "yeo yeo yeo yeo yeo yeo TYLER SIMPSON", played would you rather on the bus ride home, truth or dare, psychology-ish games from Justin.. Mm, I ♥ beach vespers.

Slept in today. Almost set the house on fire trying to make myself a bagel. Went over to Krista's house & then to Krikorian to watch Iron Man 2. Went with Greg to get gas. Sat in the car & talked until 10:30ish. Went home, & then got a surprise from Matt which consisted of 3 Sprinkles cupcakes :)) Gahd, I'm such a fatty.

1. I don't know what I'd do without you.

2. As wrong as it is, hearing that still makes me smile..

3. I'm sorry for doing that to you. I guess I should've thought about it more & what would happen later on..

4. Hi, stop being depressed :) We should go tanning. 

Wooop, good day.

Yesterday: DONATED BLOOD (: I saved a life. The lady said I had such a good vein that before they put the needle in me, they had to cover my white shirt 'cause she said the blood might get on it, haha. After school -- Chandler lost my keys, went to Wal-Mart to find the rest of our drill outfits, went to Inland, got lost, went to Target & FINALLY found stuff, got back to school at 6ish? & then drilled until 10. Had some unexpected visitors come watch.. ooh man :) Haha. Got home & couldn't fall asleep =| Ended up sleeping at 12ish.

Woke up this morning at 4:40. Dang. I'm proud of myself. Got to school & drilled until 1st period. We had to run the presidential mile today, but I was so freaking tired & sore. So we got in the gym & then Sue said the people in drill didn't have to run it today (: So she said we could take a nap & she turned the lights off in the gym. Knocked out for like 20 minutes. I ♥ Sue.

Drill -- Gahd, thank goodness it's over. I actually wasn't that nervous this year :) I guess it's 'cause this is the most prepared we've ever been. Most of our standing moves were really goood, but I guess people messed up on some spots. I totally screwed up a part of the final, but oh well. The seniors were amazing. Freshman were surprisingly pretty good.. seeing as this was the first time we've seen them drill all year pretty much. Sophomores' routine was really cute :) I'm nervous to see the results on Tuesday.. but whatever place we got, I'll still be proud of us :)

YUP,

Regretting things a bit, but it's all gooood I guess.
Jeez, why can I never make up my mind when it
comes to this? When it gets to a certain point,
things just seem to change. I don't know why,
but it ALWAYS happens. Gah, freaking bipolar.

I can't believe you. I'm surprised that I'm not as
pissed as I thought I'd be.. just disappointed.
Whatever, I don't need to worry myself over
YOUR stupid decisions. You're definitely not
the same person you were Sophomore year.

THANK YOU for always being someone I can

depend on. Sometimes I just get so fed up with

the people/drama happening around me at school
& it's nice to have an outsider to talk to about it.
So many people I know have changed so much lately,
but you've been the same person I've known since
kindergarten. Maybe a little weirder. But I still ♥ you :)

After yesterday, I'm definitely not taking
things for granted anymore. I didn't know
what was going on.. & I don't know if I want
to know what happened. But luckily,
everything's better now. Hopefully?

Drill is in 2 days. My thighs freaking HURT from
practice today. I hate the day/night before drill.
Practice from 4 until 10? Yesss, my favorite. But
I'm excited (: We're better off this year than we
were for freshman + sophmore year. I just
hope we get everything down tomorrow.

Life is nice. Other than the fact that I still
need to make-up (& fail) my ch. 17 chem
midterm + chapter test.. Great. But there's
only 18 more school days left =) & then
there's beach vespers & the Jr./Sr. party
on Sunday to look forward to. Dear God,
please let these next 3 weeks go by fast.
PLEASE.

This & that

Have you ever had to choose between two people? If so, how hard was it? Mm.. yeah. I chose neither. Do you have a member of the opposite sex you've told everything to? Haha yeeeah, mostly everything. Have you ever lost a friend(s)? How? Yeeeah. We were close in junior high, but in high school we just started drifting apart I guess? We still talk, we're just not as close. Do you honestly have any regrets? Yeah, but I don't mind. I guess everything happened for a reason, but I still wish I could've done something differently. Have you met anybody that changed your life? Well, obviously. Pretty much everyone I've met has changed my life in some way. Missing anybody? Yeeeeah. Are you an emotional person? No. I know boys that are more emotional than I am. Do you believe in marriage? Do you plan on getting married someday? Haha, yeah of course! & yes I do. Which is harder: walking away from somebody you love or coming back to somebody who has hurt you? Walking away from somebody you love. Have you ever had your heart broken? Um. No, I it wasn't that bad.. Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone? Lol aw that's such an emo question! Yeah. What was the last horror movie you watched? With who? PARANORMAL ACTIVITY (: If you can even count that as a horror movie (it wasn't). I watched it with Jon, Omar, & Cassidy.. Greg & Chandler were being pansy's. Do you take walks often? Mhm, I take walks with my dad (: I bet you're talking to someone right now, aren't you? Yep. Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with the guy/girl you like? Haha, the thought of it makes me laugh 'cause it's just so ridiculous. My best friends would never do that, so I don't needa worry (: Do any girls/guys hate you because you went out with their ex? Nope. Do you think "I love you" are strong words? Yeah, when you mean it. Are you nice to everyone? I try to? Ever receive a really long apology? Mhm. Does a kiss make you feel better? Hugs make me feel better. Is anything bugging you right now? Mmm sort of? Do you think you could live without your cell phone? Lol it probably wouldn't bother me too much. I suck at using it anyways. Would you date someone that none of your friends like? If none of them liked him, then there's probably something really wrong with him. Who was the last girl to say something to you? My mommaaa. Ready for winter to come? No, I want summer! What's the greatest thing that happened to you today? Being able to spend time with family ♥ What was the last thing you spent money on? Traditional Saturday lunches @ Maki Yaki with Krista, Risha, & Sherlene. How are you feeling at this exact moment in time? Tiiiired, lazy, full, & a little stressed. What are you doing tomorrow? School. Wooop. Are you easy to get along with? Yeah, I think sooo. Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex? Of course! Who was the last person you talked to on IM? Lol I haven't been on AIM in the longest time. I think it was either Jon or Nick? Which is hotter, a british accent or an irish accent? There's nothing attractive about the way leprechauns talk. I'll go with British. Do you think things will change in the next few months? Yeah, they better! Do you have a best friend? I have a few :) Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be? No, I don't see any reason why they shouldn't be.. Is there anyone that you're mad at right now? Not mad, just a little disappointed. Who was the last person to make you smile? ________. Hah (: Is there something you want to say to someone but can't/won't? Mmhm. How late did you stay up last night? 1ish. I couldn't fall asleep =/ Has a boyfriend/girlfriend ever told you they loved you? Yeah, but it didn't mean anything. They didn't know what they were talking about. Is there a girl that you would do absolutely everything for? Of course ♥ Who do you sit by/talk to in your fourth period? I work 4th period. I sit in Mrs. Schilt's office alone.. but sometimes Christy comes :) & then I play Diner Dash for 40 minutes & get paid. Aw yeeeah. Is confidence cute? If they're not conceited, then yeah. Do you like dark or light jeans better? Dark jeans. Who was the last person to send you a text message? His favorite color is black. Are you wasting your time on someone? No, there's no one to waste my time on. Have you ever kissed an ex after breaking up? Psh, no. Forget that. Who started your last kiss, you or them? I kissed my momma last. Are you still friends with the last person who broke your trust? I can only think of one.. & no. Would you walk into Walmart naked for $10,000? Haha. Uhm.. I'd consider. But probably not. Do you hate it when people try to play with your hair? Noo, I like it :) Are relationships really worth it? If it's with the right person, then yeah, of course! Do you have any plans for the weekend? The weekend is over =/ Would you kiss anyone you have texts from in your phone? Haha. Maybe on the cheek? :) Think back to May, who did you like? Hm.. no one. Do you find it in your heart to forgive? Mhm. I forgive easily. Do you act differently around someone you like? Lol, I try not to. Except I make it a little awkard sometimes. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? My mom? Of cooourse! Do you hate the last person you kissed? Nope. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yeah, once. My black hair is starting to grow back again though. What is your mom saved as in your phone? Madre. Are you liking how you look today? Suuuure. Do you have anyone crushing on you? Haha, I don't know. Do you believe guys mean what they say? I don't think they mean EVERYTHING. Explain your current mood? Tired, full, lazy, a little stressed. Do you like receiving flowers? I like boys who can think outside of the box & do something more creative than giving flowers. But flowers are nice. Do you talk to people you can't stand? Yeah, they don't know I can't stand them. Lol. Do you wish on 11:11? If I'm awake & happen to catch the clock at 11:11, then yeah :) Have you ever kissed someone within an hour of meeting them? Nooo that's dumb. Do you agree with the new driving laws for teenagers? ..What driving laws? What is your favourite thing to do on a summer day? Frolic. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Nooo ma'am! Have you ever been in love? Nope. What are you doing tonight? Sleeeeping ♥ Who was the first person you talked to today? My mom to wish her a happy mother's day :) Do you like meeting new people? Yeah! Do you give out second chances too easily? Really easily. Are you good at giving advice? I hope so? When you're being kissed do you like it when they hold your face? Hugs are better than kisses. How was your weekend? Pretty goood =) Honestly, have you done something bad today? Not that I remember? Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now? Not one that no one knows about already. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? Yeah. Lol, oops, my bad.

Yay, =)

Just got THE BEST NEWS (: I can't wait. I'm so excited ♥

So today in homeroom, Tim pointed out that I was class president for the day since Jon, Elizabeth, & Lydia weren't at school. Teehee, I thought it was cool (: I felt the power.

I miss the band people :( All my classes are empty. I miss Ferrenstein in P.E., there's no one to annoy & talk to in literature now that Chandler's gone because Heather talks to Matt the whole time, Hannah isn't at school, Vivien is barely at school, Heather is off with Matthew.. it's just me & Andi.. and you can't make awkward circles with just two people. We miss Liz & Lydia :( & beliefs is boring without being able to play Diner Dash on Dylan's itouch.. & I can't poke & annoy Ferrenstein with Elizabeth. ALL OF YOU, COME BACK ALREADY.

Where to start..

Today was just absolutely amazing. Can't even begin to say how much of a good day I had today :) Thank you so much to EVERYONE who said happy birthday. It means so much. I love you all ♥

Started of by getting a phone call at 3 in the morning from Chandler. What he said + his reason for calling at 3 a.m. for some reason made me smile for about 30 minutes after I hung up, even though I was dead tired. Got to school & ran in P.E. while Fern pretended he didn't know it was my birthday ♥ Haha. After P.E., walked to the blue bench but then Jon told me to come with him to his car. Surprised me with balloons and played Gentlemen Don't by Gabe Bondoc on his guitar 'cause I told him to learn it :) It was really sweet. Thank you so much, Jon :) You did goood, I don't know why you were nervous! Thank you Heather for the delicious cupcakes (which I look forward to every year), thank you Hannah for the balloons, thank you Elizabeth for the travel sized pillow, thank you Andi for the mexican candy, & thank you Matt for the rainbows + balloons. Matt, you're amazing. Thank you for everything.. (& good job at your volleyball game!) Got to officers meeting & Nathaniel surprised me with cupcakes from Nick & Nic.. Thank you for not forgetting my birthday again this year, Nick =) Got to chem optionals & found a row of apple sauces on my desk from Chandler (: Inside joke.. then got a 21/21 on the chem quiz. Smiling for the rest of the period :) After optionals, Chandler brought in a surprise from Krista. Hot cheetos, sour gummy worms, fun dip, & the corner piece of a cake. She knows me too well ♥ Chandler played a mean joke on me after school & made me feel super guilty, but it's okay 'cause he told me he was joking in the end. 

I'm so blessed to have the friends that I do. & I've especially realized that today.. I had an amazing birthday. Thank you again to everyone who wished me happy birthday :) Love you all. 

*Edit: May 5

Omar, thank you for the chalk bag. Justin, thank for the balloon + wolf a.k.a. bear a.k.a. boon a.k.a. baby :)

2hours

My last day being 16 spent doing absolutely nothing (:

My days seem to be following that trend lately. 

I miss tour. & I miss campout. Goodness, I'm so lazy lately.

It seems like there's so much stuff to worry about, but I'm

not doing enough to get everything done. Ya know? I don't

care so much anymore as I used to.. but still. I can't wait 

until next week is over. Everything we've been working

up to.. Hm, neeeeervous. But I think we'll be alright (:

Dear Chandler, 

I read your blog. Thank you so much for everything you do 

for me :) It's greatly appreciated, & I'm sorry I don't return 

the favors as often. You're a life saver. If I had a scanner, I'd

scan you stuff.. but anyways, thank you again! :)