12am

Quick little blog before I go to bed.

Yesterday: Canton Bistro for cousin's grad lunch, back home to "study" a.k.a. watching reruns of ANTM for an hour, went to LLU for cousin's graduation, saw ____ (: haha, got picked up by Risha & drove to Shasta's house to sleepover, took pictures :)), prank-calls, "with the sound of THAT voice, I wouldn't mind being stalked by you" HAHA, Hostel, The Notebook, creepy riddles.

Today: Had "crepes" for breakfast.. total fail. Played with Isabel, got picked up, attempted to study for chem all day, posted up a status on facebook which Dr. Benson saw -__- lol, went on aim for like the 3rd time this month.. it's a new record for me, interesting conversations.. mm, I have no idea why I'm still up. I was supposed to go to bed like twenty minutes ago.

1. You're one of the few. You always keep me questioning..
2. I really wish our "friendship" seemed more like an actual friendship rather than a ______.
3. This is getting out of hand. Seriously. Why can't you be more like ___? O_o
4. Everyday, you just become more & more interesting to me.
5. (: Seeing you always brightens up my day.

endoftheroad =|

Last official pro musica concert of the year today @ the Inland Filipino church =/ Teared up yet again while singing Draw Me Nearer.. but only because Mr. Knippy was like sobbing midway through :( Went to Inland afterwards with Risha, Krista, Chandler, & Greg. Went to Rite-Aid & bought ice cream, then went back to Krista's house & chilled in her room for like an hour. Got ready & left to go to the pro musica banquet. Fuuuun stuff. Last time singing with everyone as a group like that.. I'm gonna miss it ♥ Then went to Musicfest for a bit with Jon & Matt. Got to watch Cathy Nguyen. She's so adorable! & took a picture with Passion. Wooooop! What a good day (:

1. So you're starting to REALLY bug me lately.
2. YOU'RE SO HEARTLESS. You better freaking cry next week!
3. Oh my, pleasant surprise much? (:
4. Haha, I love how I always catch you ___ at ___.
5. Seeing you makes me ecstatic + sad at the same time.

5days

Today was a gooood day (:

& I'm not really sure why.

Probably because I have nothing to worry about anymore. Lit. test is over.. chem midterm is over. Nothing to worry about until finals next week (: + I finished my government research paper already, so I don't needa worry about doing that either. Woooop.

Teared up twice in pro musica today while the seniors were practicing Draw Me Nearer. Ohmygoodness, I am gonna be SO sad when they perform it on Saturday =/ I'm gonna miss so many of them. I want summer to come already, but at the same time, I don't because I don't want any of them to leave. Next year definitely won't be the same.

1. You two are such cuties. Oh my, why can't they be juniors? HAHA.

2. You better write a lot, beeezy.

3. It would make me SO happy if you signed my yearbook (:

4. Uh, that was a really freaking random text message.

5. Sorry =/ You still needa show me.

Flustered.

On my mind:
1. I can't even begin to imagine how
easy school/life would be right now
if it weren't for literature.

2. So many things to do.. & yet, I'm sitting
here on blogger with a tab open for
twitter, youtube, & facebook.
Woop -- I fail at managing my time.

3. My forgetfulness mixed with my
procrastination tendencies = 0 out of
5 tickets sold for the pro musica
banquet on saturday.. & the ticket
money is due tomorrow.

4. I WANT TO GO TO GRADNIGHT -__-
Mr. Bancarz, WHY did you have to schedule
summer school to start that day?

5. I have a detention tomorrow for ditching
chapel that I still needa clear.. & I have no
idea how I'm going to do that in time for the
MD meeting that I'm supposed to go to during lunch.

6. My room is disgustingly messy.
If it weren't for all the girly
furniture + decorations, it
could pass as a guy's room.

7. Why does time always seem to
move TEN TIMES SLOWER the l
ast few days before summer vacation?

8. I can't wait until government trip.. & July.

9. Oh hey, I have a chemistry midterm
tomorrow! Great. I just remembered.
Gah, tonight's gonna be a long night =/

10. I still need to sign your yearbook too. SO
MUCH TO DO. Why does time go by so fast
when it seems like I have so much to still do,
but goes slow when I WANT it to speed up.

Overwhelmed. Just 6 more days.

Saturdays

TODAY: Choir concert @ Indo church. Kevin said I don't look Filipino.. lol. Went with Katie to get lunch at some thai restaurant but ended up only getting dessert.. it was soo yummy. It was this coconut milk thing with huge tapioca balls in it. Yum. Went back to the Indo church to pick up Matt & Shasta then went to Macaroni Grill for Sherlene's surprise lunch (: Played pictionary, spent a freaking long time trying to pay the bill. Went back to the university & made music videos in the car w/Shas & Matt (: The concert was super sad.. I teared up on Draw Me Nearer & Amazing Grace.. Next year is going to be so different without Mr. Knippy.. I'll miss him a lot :( Went to boba afterwards with Hannah, Heather, Jon, & Matt. Then met up with Matt, Tim, Kyle, Evan & some other people @ bryn mawr to go night boarding (: Fun stuff. I ran over my pinky toe & it really hurts now, though =/

1. Gahd, you think you're so funny. You're so inconsiderate/rude.
2. I like being around you guys (: Makes me happyyyy.
3. I'm gonna miss you playing with my hair next year =/
4. Your voice makes me melt. Hahahaha.
5. If you don't try out, I'm definitely gonna do some fasting :p

III.

THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO IN YUCAIPA.
I'm so freaking bored out of my mind right now. Someone, please move out here. Come be my neighbor & keep me company. My source of entertainment is sitting on a bench @ the end of my street & watching cars. I have no life -___-
---> BENCH. Goodness, that's an old picture. Taken like 2 years ago.

Today: Ultimate frisbee, got Joaquin in trouble in chem :), history, sat @ the lunch tables during lit. while Matt & Heather had their own little conversation.. I don't understand them, talked w/Katie -- I'm gonna miss that girl next year =/, got free pizza @ lunch, boycotted the caf?, beliefs, geometry -- I love that class right now.. it's so easy, finally made up my chem test + midterm.. didn't know how to do 2 questions on the midterm & I'm pretty sure I got some others wrong =( Ruined my day. Ohhh well! Got home, sat around, did nothing, facebook, decided to do something productive -- stole my dad's iPod, replaced all his music with mine, went longboarding around the neighborhood, sat @ the bench waiting for the sunset & listened to Jack Johnson for the rest of the time. I can't wait until summer.. I just wanna get out of the house already. I'm tired of living in the middle of nowhere :p

1. Your blog entries are entertaining.
2. You make me smile every time I see you (:
3. I wish you were in my grade.
4. I can't wait to see you this summer! =)

II.

"Once, when she was six years old, she had fallen from a tree, flat on her stomach. She could still recall that sickening interval before breath came back into her body.

Life has reached a plateau. Nothing interesting & nothing exciting lately. Summer needs to hurry up & come faster.

Now, as she looked at him, she felt the same way she had felt then, 

breathless, stunned, nauseated.

Pt. 1

Beach vespers was yesterday -- rented one of those bike thingy's with Hannah, Heather, Lydia, & Elizabeth.. attempted going all the way to the pier, but we're all fat so that failed. Me & Heather stole baby John's & Nick's two seater bike & rode around on that for the rest of the hour :) Ate, ghosted, tackled, made s'mores, took pictures, worship, gave each other yellow roses, got a yellow rose from Katie :), "yeo yeo yeo yeo yeo yeo TYLER SIMPSON", played would you rather on the bus ride home, truth or dare, psychology-ish games from Justin.. Mm, I ♥ beach vespers.

Slept in today. Almost set the house on fire trying to make myself a bagel. Went over to Krista's house & then to Krikorian to watch Iron Man 2. Went with Greg to get gas. Sat in the car & talked until 10:30ish. Went home, & then got a surprise from Matt which consisted of 3 Sprinkles cupcakes :)) Gahd, I'm such a fatty.

1. I don't know what I'd do without you.

2. As wrong as it is, hearing that still makes me smile..

3. I'm sorry for doing that to you. I guess I should've thought about it more & what would happen later on..

4. Hi, stop being depressed :) We should go tanning. 

Wooop, good day.

Yesterday: DONATED BLOOD (: I saved a life. The lady said I had such a good vein that before they put the needle in me, they had to cover my white shirt 'cause she said the blood might get on it, haha. After school -- Chandler lost my keys, went to Wal-Mart to find the rest of our drill outfits, went to Inland, got lost, went to Target & FINALLY found stuff, got back to school at 6ish? & then drilled until 10. Had some unexpected visitors come watch.. ooh man :) Haha. Got home & couldn't fall asleep =| Ended up sleeping at 12ish.

Woke up this morning at 4:40. Dang. I'm proud of myself. Got to school & drilled until 1st period. We had to run the presidential mile today, but I was so freaking tired & sore. So we got in the gym & then Sue said the people in drill didn't have to run it today (: So she said we could take a nap & she turned the lights off in the gym. Knocked out for like 20 minutes. I ♥ Sue.

Drill -- Gahd, thank goodness it's over. I actually wasn't that nervous this year :) I guess it's 'cause this is the most prepared we've ever been. Most of our standing moves were really goood, but I guess people messed up on some spots. I totally screwed up a part of the final, but oh well. The seniors were amazing. Freshman were surprisingly pretty good.. seeing as this was the first time we've seen them drill all year pretty much. Sophomores' routine was really cute :) I'm nervous to see the results on Tuesday.. but whatever place we got, I'll still be proud of us :)

YUP,

Regretting things a bit, but it's all gooood I guess.
Jeez, why can I never make up my mind when it
comes to this? When it gets to a certain point,
things just seem to change. I don't know why,
but it ALWAYS happens. Gah, freaking bipolar.

I can't believe you. I'm surprised that I'm not as
pissed as I thought I'd be.. just disappointed.
Whatever, I don't need to worry myself over
YOUR stupid decisions. You're definitely not
the same person you were Sophomore year.

THANK YOU for always being someone I can

depend on. Sometimes I just get so fed up with

the people/drama happening around me at school
& it's nice to have an outsider to talk to about it.
So many people I know have changed so much lately,
but you've been the same person I've known since
kindergarten. Maybe a little weirder. But I still ♥ you :)

After yesterday, I'm definitely not taking
things for granted anymore. I didn't know
what was going on.. & I don't know if I want
to know what happened. But luckily,
everything's better now. Hopefully?

Drill is in 2 days. My thighs freaking HURT from
practice today. I hate the day/night before drill.
Practice from 4 until 10? Yesss, my favorite. But
I'm excited (: We're better off this year than we
were for freshman + sophmore year. I just
hope we get everything down tomorrow.

Life is nice. Other than the fact that I still
need to make-up (& fail) my ch. 17 chem
midterm + chapter test.. Great. But there's
only 18 more school days left =) & then
there's beach vespers & the Jr./Sr. party
on Sunday to look forward to. Dear God,
please let these next 3 weeks go by fast.
PLEASE.

This & that

Have you ever had to choose between two people? If so, how hard was it? Mm.. yeah. I chose neither. Do you have a member of the opposite sex you've told everything to? Haha yeeeah, mostly everything. Have you ever lost a friend(s)? How? Yeeeah. We were close in junior high, but in high school we just started drifting apart I guess? We still talk, we're just not as close. Do you honestly have any regrets? Yeah, but I don't mind. I guess everything happened for a reason, but I still wish I could've done something differently. Have you met anybody that changed your life? Well, obviously. Pretty much everyone I've met has changed my life in some way. Missing anybody? Yeeeeah. Are you an emotional person? No. I know boys that are more emotional than I am. Do you believe in marriage? Do you plan on getting married someday? Haha, yeah of course! & yes I do. Which is harder: walking away from somebody you love or coming back to somebody who has hurt you? Walking away from somebody you love. Have you ever had your heart broken? Um. No, I it wasn't that bad.. Ever cried while you were on the phone with someone? Lol aw that's such an emo question! Yeah. What was the last horror movie you watched? With who? PARANORMAL ACTIVITY (: If you can even count that as a horror movie (it wasn't). I watched it with Jon, Omar, & Cassidy.. Greg & Chandler were being pansy's. Do you take walks often? Mhm, I take walks with my dad (: I bet you're talking to someone right now, aren't you? Yep. Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with the guy/girl you like? Haha, the thought of it makes me laugh 'cause it's just so ridiculous. My best friends would never do that, so I don't needa worry (: Do any girls/guys hate you because you went out with their ex? Nope. Do you think "I love you" are strong words? Yeah, when you mean it. Are you nice to everyone? I try to? Ever receive a really long apology? Mhm. Does a kiss make you feel better? Hugs make me feel better. Is anything bugging you right now? Mmm sort of? Do you think you could live without your cell phone? Lol it probably wouldn't bother me too much. I suck at using it anyways. Would you date someone that none of your friends like? If none of them liked him, then there's probably something really wrong with him. Who was the last girl to say something to you? My mommaaa. Ready for winter to come? No, I want summer! What's the greatest thing that happened to you today? Being able to spend time with family ♥ What was the last thing you spent money on? Traditional Saturday lunches @ Maki Yaki with Krista, Risha, & Sherlene. How are you feeling at this exact moment in time? Tiiiired, lazy, full, & a little stressed. What are you doing tomorrow? School. Wooop. Are you easy to get along with? Yeah, I think sooo. Have you ever had a best friend of the opposite sex? Of course! Who was the last person you talked to on IM? Lol I haven't been on AIM in the longest time. I think it was either Jon or Nick? Which is hotter, a british accent or an irish accent? There's nothing attractive about the way leprechauns talk. I'll go with British. Do you think things will change in the next few months? Yeah, they better! Do you have a best friend? I have a few :) Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be? No, I don't see any reason why they shouldn't be.. Is there anyone that you're mad at right now? Not mad, just a little disappointed. Who was the last person to make you smile? ________. Hah (: Is there something you want to say to someone but can't/won't? Mmhm. How late did you stay up last night? 1ish. I couldn't fall asleep =/ Has a boyfriend/girlfriend ever told you they loved you? Yeah, but it didn't mean anything. They didn't know what they were talking about. Is there a girl that you would do absolutely everything for? Of course ♥ Who do you sit by/talk to in your fourth period? I work 4th period. I sit in Mrs. Schilt's office alone.. but sometimes Christy comes :) & then I play Diner Dash for 40 minutes & get paid. Aw yeeeah. Is confidence cute? If they're not conceited, then yeah. Do you like dark or light jeans better? Dark jeans. Who was the last person to send you a text message? His favorite color is black. Are you wasting your time on someone? No, there's no one to waste my time on. Have you ever kissed an ex after breaking up? Psh, no. Forget that. Who started your last kiss, you or them? I kissed my momma last. Are you still friends with the last person who broke your trust? I can only think of one.. & no. Would you walk into Walmart naked for $10,000? Haha. Uhm.. I'd consider. But probably not. Do you hate it when people try to play with your hair? Noo, I like it :) Are relationships really worth it? If it's with the right person, then yeah, of course! Do you have any plans for the weekend? The weekend is over =/ Would you kiss anyone you have texts from in your phone? Haha. Maybe on the cheek? :) Think back to May, who did you like? Hm.. no one. Do you find it in your heart to forgive? Mhm. I forgive easily. Do you act differently around someone you like? Lol, I try not to. Except I make it a little awkard sometimes. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? My mom? Of cooourse! Do you hate the last person you kissed? Nope. Have you ever dyed your hair? Yeah, once. My black hair is starting to grow back again though. What is your mom saved as in your phone? Madre. Are you liking how you look today? Suuuure. Do you have anyone crushing on you? Haha, I don't know. Do you believe guys mean what they say? I don't think they mean EVERYTHING. Explain your current mood? Tired, full, lazy, a little stressed. Do you like receiving flowers? I like boys who can think outside of the box & do something more creative than giving flowers. But flowers are nice. Do you talk to people you can't stand? Yeah, they don't know I can't stand them. Lol. Do you wish on 11:11? If I'm awake & happen to catch the clock at 11:11, then yeah :) Have you ever kissed someone within an hour of meeting them? Nooo that's dumb. Do you agree with the new driving laws for teenagers? ..What driving laws? What is your favourite thing to do on a summer day? Frolic. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Nooo ma'am! Have you ever been in love? Nope. What are you doing tonight? Sleeeeping ♥ Who was the first person you talked to today? My mom to wish her a happy mother's day :) Do you like meeting new people? Yeah! Do you give out second chances too easily? Really easily. Are you good at giving advice? I hope so? When you're being kissed do you like it when they hold your face? Hugs are better than kisses. How was your weekend? Pretty goood =) Honestly, have you done something bad today? Not that I remember? Honestly, are you keeping a big secret right now? Not one that no one knows about already. Ever made anyone cry when you were mad? Yeah. Lol, oops, my bad.

Yay, =)

Just got THE BEST NEWS (: I can't wait. I'm so excited ♥

So today in homeroom, Tim pointed out that I was class president for the day since Jon, Elizabeth, & Lydia weren't at school. Teehee, I thought it was cool (: I felt the power.

I miss the band people :( All my classes are empty. I miss Ferrenstein in P.E., there's no one to annoy & talk to in literature now that Chandler's gone because Heather talks to Matt the whole time, Hannah isn't at school, Vivien is barely at school, Heather is off with Matthew.. it's just me & Andi.. and you can't make awkward circles with just two people. We miss Liz & Lydia :( & beliefs is boring without being able to play Diner Dash on Dylan's itouch.. & I can't poke & annoy Ferrenstein with Elizabeth. ALL OF YOU, COME BACK ALREADY.

Where to start..

Today was just absolutely amazing. Can't even begin to say how much of a good day I had today :) Thank you so much to EVERYONE who said happy birthday. It means so much. I love you all ♥

Started of by getting a phone call at 3 in the morning from Chandler. What he said + his reason for calling at 3 a.m. for some reason made me smile for about 30 minutes after I hung up, even though I was dead tired. Got to school & ran in P.E. while Fern pretended he didn't know it was my birthday ♥ Haha. After P.E., walked to the blue bench but then Jon told me to come with him to his car. Surprised me with balloons and played Gentlemen Don't by Gabe Bondoc on his guitar 'cause I told him to learn it :) It was really sweet. Thank you so much, Jon :) You did goood, I don't know why you were nervous! Thank you Heather for the delicious cupcakes (which I look forward to every year), thank you Hannah for the balloons, thank you Elizabeth for the travel sized pillow, thank you Andi for the mexican candy, & thank you Matt for the rainbows + balloons. Matt, you're amazing. Thank you for everything.. (& good job at your volleyball game!) Got to officers meeting & Nathaniel surprised me with cupcakes from Nick & Nic.. Thank you for not forgetting my birthday again this year, Nick =) Got to chem optionals & found a row of apple sauces on my desk from Chandler (: Inside joke.. then got a 21/21 on the chem quiz. Smiling for the rest of the period :) After optionals, Chandler brought in a surprise from Krista. Hot cheetos, sour gummy worms, fun dip, & the corner piece of a cake. She knows me too well ♥ Chandler played a mean joke on me after school & made me feel super guilty, but it's okay 'cause he told me he was joking in the end. 

I'm so blessed to have the friends that I do. & I've especially realized that today.. I had an amazing birthday. Thank you again to everyone who wished me happy birthday :) Love you all. 

*Edit: May 5

Omar, thank you for the chalk bag. Justin, thank for the balloon + wolf a.k.a. bear a.k.a. boon a.k.a. baby :)

2hours

My last day being 16 spent doing absolutely nothing (:

My days seem to be following that trend lately. 

I miss tour. & I miss campout. Goodness, I'm so lazy lately.

It seems like there's so much stuff to worry about, but I'm

not doing enough to get everything done. Ya know? I don't

care so much anymore as I used to.. but still. I can't wait 

until next week is over. Everything we've been working

up to.. Hm, neeeeervous. But I think we'll be alright (:

Dear Chandler, 

I read your blog. Thank you so much for everything you do 

for me :) It's greatly appreciated, & I'm sorry I don't return 

the favors as often. You're a life saver. If I had a scanner, I'd

scan you stuff.. but anyways, thank you again! :)

Campout

Holding Ferrenstein hostage on the bus, grilled cheeeese + tomato soup, vespers on the beach, sang Amazing Grace, smores, scary stories, Elizabeth talking to Andi spirits, woke up to Elizabeth's beautiful morning face, mom prepared us breakfast, played boomchikaboomboom, Elizabeth -- the mole Dr., ate junkfood + tanned on the beach, doggy-piled, got an inverted short's tan, lunch, choreographed a ballroom dance w/ Liz, Lydia, & Hannah, performed it to everyone who'd watch, showered, ate, worship, caterpillar game, capture the flag, Heather's a creeper @ night & Elizabeth hogs all the blankets, woke up, ate breakfast, played the "bear" game all morning, played kick-ball, group picture, bus ride back..

Campout was a lot of fun this year :) I liked it a lot better than last years.
I'm exhausted & still haven't done any homework. Oh well!

1. I can never get tired of you. You're the one exception.
2. I feel kinda bad.. you're like the guy version of ____ in a way.
3. I hope you had a good time @ campout w/us, even though we don't talk much!
4. Do I need to tape your mouth shut or something? Goodness.
5. I like your hair :)