Feeling a little

down in the dumps =|

& then I found this video & it made me feel a little bit better :)

"I'll buy you expensive chocolate. I'll shower you with kisses. I'll give you flowers. I'll make every moment magical ♥"

1. Everything was fine.. & then one little thing happened & it seemed like it changed everything. But the total opposite of what I thought would happen. I didn't think it would have this much of an impact. I just don't want to have to worry about this throughout the summer.. But then I think about before, & I realized how much things have changed & it makes me sad. It's like deja vu, except I never thought I'd be in this position. I just wish I could go back & fix this. I wish it could go back to how it was before.. when I was worrying about it, but not because I was directly involved..

2. I thank God for people like you. For being someone I can just hang out with & chill.. no drama to worry about, no gossip.. just having fun & doing whatever. I can never forget what a great friend you were ____ year. Unlike ____, you stuck up for me. I didn't have the feeling that everything was always a competition.. that feeling I always had with ____. You even forgave me after that whole text message incident.. There was a reason I chose you. I could trust you & I knew that you'd always have my back. I miss you =/ But I can't wait to hang out w/you this summer when you & I come back :)

3. Seeing that almost made me tear up :( I honestly don't know what I'm going to do with myself. Whenever I think of ____ ____, I think of you. Seeing you/talking to you every day was like routine. I'm going to miss making fun of ____ with you & listening to all your crazy stories about ____ ;) We got so close this year, & I wish that could've happened sooner. I'm gonna miss you so much next year.

4. No matter how much of a O_o you may be, I don't think I can ever get tired of you. Well.. other than those two weeks. Haha. But when everyone else is getting on my nerves, as much as you may be getting on my nerves also, I still choose to talk to you. & I guess your O_o-ness, as much as it genuinely ____ me out sometimes, is also sort of flattering. In a way.

- Sigh, I really wish I was going to gradnight this year =/ Boo, Mr. Bancarz.
- I wish my dad would quit being so anal about everything lately.
- I'm craving a surprise right now. Something nice. To cheer me up.
- Feeling nostalgic.